There is nothing worse.

by Lori Dwyer on March 17, 2010 · 8 comments

Hey there blogeratti,

I know a lot of you are mummies, and you may just know what I’m talking about. If you break out in a cold sweat and quake at the mention of the words “newborn”, “sleep deprivation”, “reflux” or “colic”, this one’s for you. And, of course, me.

There is nothing harder, in my humble opinion, then being a new mum coping with an unsettled baby and the dreaded effects of chronic sleep deprivation. There is something soul destroying about sleeping only in hour long stretches at a time, every muscle, every cell, every pore aching with exhaustion.

Believe me, I know. My lovely little Chop was awake every hour and a half, for the first six months of his life, right through the night, and only cat napped for half hour stretches during the day.

I have never been so exhausted.

I would cry at the very thought of sleep.

Nothing helped. My exhaustion and total overwhelmed-ness led to severe PND. I was so tired, I was hallucinating.

My heart swelled with anxiety and love and desperation every time I looked at my baby boy.

And my husband tried to reach me through the fog.

Sleep deprivation, post-natal depression, they are terrible things. But was it worth it in the end?

Eventually, yeah, I’d say it was. But it was a long, long, road to here.

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Sarah March 19, 2010 at 10:04 pm

You know my thoughts on this topic *hug*

I does get better, I promise. I won't say how long because we've only just started recovering, but one day it will be better.


lori March 19, 2010 at 7:13 am

this is why sleep deprivation is used as a torture technique! My son was like that too. Everything I read and everyone I talked to said newborns sleep all the time, then when he was born I realized they all lied. I empathize. A weaker person couldn't have made it through it!


Kakka March 19, 2010 at 12:49 am

Good on you for getting through and out the other side. Lack of sleep is the pits. Little chops is soo cute, thanks for sharing these gorgeous pics.


Amy xxoo March 18, 2010 at 4:02 pm

I'm lukcy enough to have a baby that sleeps really well so i applaud all the mummas who've had to push through the exhaustion barrier. Cheers to you ladies!


Brenda March 18, 2010 at 3:57 pm

And hey look, Jill is here. Hi Jill.*waves*


Brenda March 18, 2010 at 3:56 pm

Story of my life!

Sophie has eczema which makes her skin really itchy makes which makes her NOT sleep through the night which makes me really grumpy. Sigh.


Lucy March 18, 2010 at 3:07 pm

Shudder. And that is all I have to say.


Draft Queen March 18, 2010 at 2:21 pm

Oy. Sleep deprivation. And PND. I remember it like it was yesterday.

And it was awful.

((Hugs to you))


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