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The Streets of Pangkalan Bun. – RRSAHM

The Streets of Pangkalan Bun.

by Lori Dwyer on June 11, 2013 · 1 comment

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Pangkalan Bun feels like a place best experienced properly from the back of one of the local’s fast moving scooters.

I’m not even sure why I wanted to do it so badly… I’m beginning to think I’m actually more comfortable when I’m outside my comfort zone.

The thought of mingling with the traffic, being a part of the organised chaos that rules the streets here, rather than just observing… it’s an intoxicating concept.

I relay my wish to our local guide, Ivend– will he take me for a ride on his scooter, please? His eyes pop wide open and he shakes his head slowly. I get the distinct feeling I may be the first ever guest of Orangutan Odysseys to make this particular request.

The next day, I ask Garry, the boss man, instead. He agrees, reminding me, quite sensibly, that I’ve signed a waver and I’m incurring all liability should anything go wrong. He also tells me there’s no way he’s letting me on the back of Ivend’s scooter (admittedly quite beat up from it’s fourteen past accidents). He suggests taking the Orangutan Odysseys scooter instead.

“Miss Lori, gila,” grins Ivend, using a word he’d taught me day before. “Miss Lori, crazy”.

I’m not going to argue with that.

Motorbike helmets are, from what I’ve observed so far in Pangkalan Bun entirely optional accessories, so I’m relieved when Ivend shows up with two of them. One is expertly airbrushed with the Orangutan Odysseys logo- done by a local, Garry tells me, all freehand.

I jump on the bike behind Ivend, wrap my arms loosely around his waist, and he pulls out of the long, straight driveway of the hotel and turns left into the supple slipstream traffic of central Pangkalan Bun.

 

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To be honest, we’re not going quite as fast as I’d like to. But I can see how crashing the company bike, with a guest onboard, might be bad for Ivend’s career prospects. I can only imagine how much it would enhance his other big reputation in his hometown of Kumai, just down the road from here. He’s a ‘playboy’, he tells us, and fills us in on his antics during the week, the girls he’s currently dating and the ones he used to date, the ones he want to date and the ones his mates are dating.

Discussing it with Erin, we agree that his cheeky, entertaining stories are probably based in truth. With brilliantly spoken English, a good job, extremely long fingernails (the height of fashion amongst Indonesian men, of all ages- “We do it… for attention” says Ivend, and the admittance that men here are allowed to partake in vanity without it affecting their masculinity is refreshing), eyeliner on his lower lids, long, salon-straightened hair (“I want to look like an orangutan!” says Ivend, in all seriousness), and a passion for reggae music… for any Bornean girl, Ivend is a catch.

And he totally knows it.

Despite- maybe because of- that, Ivend is excellent at his job. As we cruise around the streets of Pangkalan Bun, he points out the sights, the activities, the people as we pass them.

 

Ivend the 'playboy'.

Ivend the ‘playboy’.

 

 

We pass groups of school children sucking iced tea from small plastic bags, secured around a plastic straw. We see women dressed in yellow suits, blue hijabs and traditional straw hats, sweeping the streets with straw brooms.

Street vendors push carts that sell dumpling and fried duck, nasi goreng and- bizarrely- KFC chicken. Every two hundred metres is a tiny ticket-booth sized stall selling cigarettes, packets of rice snacks and milkshake powders, and glass bottles full of petrol to be poured into the hundreds of scooters that pass by every day.

 

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We drive past the saw-mill section of town and it smells of clean, crisp, freshly sawn ironwood. In front of large, decadent, beautiful green mosque, a man with a basket stands between the two lanes of traffic, collecting money from the devout.

The air comes in small, sharp pockets of smell; the way it always does on the back of a motorbike, and I experience the city through my senses- fried food and petrol, the fresh fish scent of the river. The smell of people, of sweat and blood and urine and life. All mixed with the occasional deep green musk of the jungle that surrounds us.

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We don’t crash. I don’t die. We make it safely back to the hotel, where a car is waiting to take us to the local markets. The markets are small and cramped, a labyrinth of tiny shops tucked away between two streets. There are hats and t-shirts, toys and make-up. A dressmaker’s shop filled with a rainbow of ribbons and sequin and zippers. Bag shops and shoe shops, places to buy veils and saris and hijabs.

The locals we encounter are curious, welcoming and friendly, laughing good-naturedly when they spot Erin taking photos of just about everything, happy to assist us without the incessant heckling we experience later in Bali. The prices are cheap, the quality ranges from awful to decadent.

 

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From the entrance of the Swiss Belinn Hotel.

 

 

The souvenir shops in Pangkalan Bun are tiny and there’s so few of them that I wasn’t even aware they existed until Ivend directed our hotel driver to stop in front of two nondescript storefronts. On-the-street-parking of cars in Pangkalan Bun is done under the guidance of men dressed in dark blue, who stop traffic with hand signals and direct the driver into a parking spot previously occupied by milk crates or boxes. A flattened cardboard box is provided as a windshield cover, to prevent the car from heating up. A small fee is exchanged upon leaving. It’s a delicate process that seems to keep that balance between organised chaos and disorganised anarchy- Garry tells us that, in the four years he’s been visiting here regularly, he’s only seen one major traffic accident; and from what Ivend says most scooter accidents are minor, with both the bike and the riders coming away relatively unscathed.

We buy souvenirs, and most of them are gorgeous- the tacky ones are few and far between, and I don’t see a single thing painted with a tropical sunset or spouting ‘I Heart Pangkalan Bun!’. It’s more carvings and bracelets, beaded handbags and therapeutic oils made from the natural medicines we’ve seen in the jungle.

The only other tourist-centric shops we see are three tucked close together at the airport, all selling identical merchandise. Again, the shopkeepers are friendly and helpful, without being overbearing or (as I discovered they can be, later in Kuta) slightly terrifying. After the rush of travelers come and go for the two mid-afternoon flights, the tiny stalls close again. The shop keepers cover their merchandise with colorful cloth and disappear into the peaceful, busy rhythm of Pangkalan Bun.

 

A double rainbow. This was the view from our hotel room, our last afternoon in Pangkalan Bun.

A double rainbow. This was the view from our hotel room, our last afternoon in Pangkalan Bun.

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Whoa, Molly June 12, 2013 at 9:57 am

I’m loving reading these! Let those of us stuck at home in murky June live vicariously through you!

(Also, Ivend? Total babe.)
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by Lori Dwyer on April 14, 2010 · 8 comments

I’m guest posting over at MummyTime….

No way!!

Yes, seriously. I know. Two guest posts in two days. Cool, huh?

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Kakka April 15, 2010 at 12:25 am

Well you do get around, don't you. Careful you know what they say about girls that don't stay home!!

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Emma April 14, 2010 at 7:58 pm

Oooooo… guest blogging! I had no idea this even existed. :)

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Ratz April 14, 2010 at 1:53 pm

Thankyou Dear Lori.

You made me choke on my breakfast!

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Thea April 14, 2010 at 1:16 pm

I just saw you over there you star!!
I mean, you bogan. Tehe

Great post, loved it. :)

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Brenda April 14, 2010 at 10:43 am

You are on a roll, baby! Oh yes you are. Mwahs.

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Tmena April 14, 2010 at 10:21 am

Loved your post. Hilarious!

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Jen April 14, 2010 at 10:06 am

I read this one this morning! Very cool Miss Lori..are you tarting yourself out to all of cyberland Lori? :p.

Go you Miss thang! I was very excited to read your Bogan post at MummyTime :) . There just can't be enough of you floating around I say :D .

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Madmother April 14, 2010 at 1:45 pm

Can I be your first geriatric groupie?

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Goshdarn Neural Pathways.

by Lori Dwyer on May 2, 2011 · 25 comments

Keep in mind, while reading this post, that I have no medical training whatsoever. OK? OK.


They tell me- ‘they’ being my shrink and Google- that the brain has neural pathways.

I knew that already, obviously. I guess what I didn’t know was that the more you use them- the more you think the same thing, over and over- the ‘deeper’, I guess, they get.

Like tracks in the forest. The more they are used, the more defined they are.

And that’s a total bitch of a thing, when someone very close to you dies.

You see, your mind is so used to thinking the same thing. So, for example, your phone rings, and your brain automatically shoots itself down the particular forest track that tells you it’s probably your husband.

Or, you think, “I need someone who can drive a trailer.” And your brain careens off down the pathway of your husband.

or, you see some mark down men’s clothes, and your stupid brain, it automatically starts looking for your husband’s size.

And the problem with all these things is, your husband has been dead for three months.

And it hurts, every fucking time.

Goshdarn fucked up neural pathways.

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Brenna May 4, 2011 at 2:02 pm

I know what you are talking about. It's totally cruel and wrong. I'm so sorry.

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Toots May 4, 2011 at 8:06 am

Ugh, that's brutal honey. I can only sit here & will you onwards, with my own screwy neural pathways.

I know it's a totally different thing, but I was reading about ADD (like ADHD, only you get less done…) & someone called people without it 'NTs' – Neural Typicals. It stuck with me cause it's nice to think that the scary 'normal' people are some kind of separate tribe from the rest of us with not-so-typical neural happenings!

Lots of love, Sophie xxx

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Kristy May 4, 2011 at 5:57 am

But, sometimes, you must think too that it will be sad when the brain does stop doing it. Argh. I'm sorry. That's all I've got. Hugs.

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Melissa May 3, 2011 at 9:42 pm

I know just what you mean. I remember having a similar experience after my miscarriages.
Sale on maternity clothes?! Oh, wait, not pregnant anymore.
Plans for camping in May? Sorry, can't – I'll have a newborn! Oh wait, no I won't.
Ooh another pregnant lady – let's chat! Oh wait, no. I hate her now.
What I can tell you is that your brain does stop doing it – eventually. But I know it hurts, and I'm sorry.
xo

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Kellie May 3, 2011 at 8:23 pm

Here's hoping you can find some new and wonderful paths filled with love. Big hugs! xx

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River May 3, 2011 at 1:52 pm

It all takes time Lori. But maybe MaidinAustralia can help that time get a bit shorter?

I still look at men's shirts etc. in catalogues and think "Oh that would look nice on L." Separated over a year and the divorce is final this week.

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Darker Side of Pink May 3, 2011 at 11:07 am

Eventually, your mind forms new pathways and changes the old ones. It does get easier, or lighter. I dont know if you will always have that there, the memories and things of the people that we lose trick us. It sucks and it isnt fair, but it does get better. I know that probably doesnt help, but it takes time.

*hugs*

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rageagainsttheblackdog May 3, 2011 at 9:11 am

Hugs Lori.

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Watercolor May 3, 2011 at 8:34 am

Hugs

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Janet NZ May 3, 2011 at 4:17 am

It gets easier Lori. It just does. Contact MaidinOz – maybe she can provide more help than our words. xxx
PS My Mum still thinks a phone-call around 3pm will be her Mum – Nana died 23 years ago.

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Hear Mum Roar May 3, 2011 at 3:17 am

Here's to laying down some new pathways:)

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Trik82 May 2, 2011 at 10:38 pm

Geez that's just cruel Lori :o( ((HUGS))

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Andrea May 2, 2011 at 8:27 pm

That's just Fxxxed. No other way to say it.

I hope in the short term that those pathways start to blur enough that it doesn't happen so painfully regularly and doesn't hurt so much when it does happen – and that in the future, when it happens, you are able to smile at the memory.

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Kelloggsville May 2, 2011 at 8:01 pm

3 months is very short (and yet probably the longest ever for you). Your body wouldnt have healed after a serious op yet, don't expect greater things from your mind. Time is a curse and a blessing xxx

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Amy xxoo May 2, 2011 at 7:40 pm

I, also, was once victim to those horrible neural pathways. Not in the context of the memory of a loved one… but thats how i fell into the black hole of depression and social anxiety disorder. The more negative thoughts i thought, the more i couldnt think of anything else… so i sympathise with you Lori, i really do. I know its not the same but i know what a bitch those neural pathways can be…

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phonakins May 2, 2011 at 6:55 pm

Hard to unlearn

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Diminishing Lucy May 2, 2011 at 5:40 pm

There is not a grocery shopping day goes by when I don't automatically do for my phone to call my brother. It was our "thing". We would always gossip around the aisles together, him in WA, me in SA.

its 4.5 years since he died. I shall probably ALWAYS go to call him when I grocery shop. It's one of the reasons I have flirted with online shopping. Breaking of habits.

xx

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Kimmie May 2, 2011 at 4:38 pm

Oh honey I imagine for those few brief seconds all is ok in your world and then you are jolted back to reality with the most enormous of thuds and left with your heart pounding in your chest….sigh.

xxx

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Rin May 2, 2011 at 4:19 pm

I can only imagine how tough that must be for you! It would be like rubbing salt into the wound. It seems like 'MadeInAustralia' may have some really helpful advice in how to overcome or maybe accept these neural pathways.
Hugs to you Lori xxx

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MaidInAustralia May 2, 2011 at 3:36 pm

PS And I know what you mean. A day of Mindfulness training just kills me. I'm so exhausted by the end of the day, but the result is worthwhile, trust me.

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MaidInAustralia May 2, 2011 at 3:35 pm

No they're not. They do hurt … as we are unaccustomed to using them … but they are proof that what we think and what has happened to us and what we've done to ourselves can be changed. In the past medicos through brains couldn't change. Once damaged, they couldn't get better. Neural plasticity means we can grow the parts of our brain that work for good and not evil. For me, I've been doing that via Mindfulness training, which has saved my life. If you ever need info or encouragement let me know and I'll help. xo

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Alienne May 2, 2011 at 6:58 pm

It does wear off, gradually. Well some of it does; I am only 3 1/2 years down the line so I don't know if all of it does. I have definitely stopped expecting him to call and I don't look for his size in clothes any more. I do still think it's him first when I hear the key in the door at night though.

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Good Golly Miss Holly! May 2, 2011 at 4:32 pm

My Mum confessed to me that sometimes she picks up the phone after a hard day and dials my Nan's number for a chat. Then she stops and remembers it's been almost 4 years since Nan passed. The very thought shatters my heart into a thousand pieces, I can not fathom how that must feel for you. Love and light as always my sweet x

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Sandy May 2, 2011 at 3:23 pm

I agree completely. Fuck those neural pathways.. they are total bitches.

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by Lori Dwyer on April 20, 2012 · 9 comments

After I posted last week that I’m no different from any other blogger but you should vote for me anyway, a few of us all got all nostalgic on Twitter about the good ol’ days when we used to have to hand crank our modems and walk five kilometers through the freezing snow with no shoes just to get a wi-fi connection. Or something.
Actually, truth be known, we were reminiscing about memes and how much fun they were. If you’re wondering what the hell I’m talking about, a ‘meme’ is a blog game. Like this one. Or this one. Or this one here.
And we decided we’re bringing them back, jellybeans. Eden already does Fresh Horses, MummyTime is doing her iHappy Monday again, but this time on Instagram. The Muse Wars returns here to RRSAHM in the next month.

So,  to get the warm meme-y fuzzies flowing, I’ve decided to re-meme my favorite meme. I don’t know who came up with this one, but I’m saying- feel free to pinch it, do it for yourself on your blog, and pass it forward. If for other reason than deciding which flower you’d be is guaranteed to make you feel good. If you do post your own ‘If I Were, I’d Be’; leave me a link in the comments so I can come check it out? Cheers.

Personally, it’s not just the feel-good factor that makes this particular game appealing. Everyone changes this much in eighteen months… right?
Picture related, but totally not. It’s me in felt. Thanks so much Jenny– I love!!

 If I Were, I’d Be….

If I were a month, I’d be the November rain.

If I were a day of the week, I’d be Sunday.

If I were a time of day, I’d still be way past bedtime.

If I were a planet, I’d be a star. I’d be a super nova who’s not quite yet a black hole… just.

If I were an animal, I’d still be a pussycat, but curled up this time, no longer stretched out in the sun.

If I were a direction, I’d be forward..

If I were a piece of furniture, I’d just be a milk crate..

If I were a liquid, I’d be something viscous.

If I were a gemsotone, I’d be a diamond, uncut, raw.

If I were a tree, I’d still be a flame tree.

If I were a tool, I’d be that pen that is mightier than the sword.

If I were a flower, I think I’d still be a daisy.

If I were a kind of weather, I’d be the Sydney’s last unSummer.

If I were a musical instrument, I’d still be an acoustic guitar.

If I were a color, I’d be black and blue.

If I were an emotion, I’d be flinching dissent.

If I were a fruit, I’d be still watermelon.

If I were a sound, I’d still be the last hurrah.

If I were an element, I’d be the alchemist’s gold.

If I were a car, I wouldn’t be… I’d walk.

If I were a food, I’d still be jellybeans.

If I were a place, I’d still be right here.

If I were a material, I’d be washed out flannelette.

If I were a taste, I might still be fairy floss… or the metallic penny-under-your-tongue, a side effect that comes with anti-depressant medications. Or both.

If I were a scent, I’d be lavender and liquorice and cigarettes.

If I were a body part, I’d be big blue eyes.

If I were a facial expression, I’d still be a tongue stuck out…followed by middle finger stuck up, and a smile.

If I were a pair of shoes, I wouldn’t be… I’d go barefoot. But I’d keep those old Cons in the back of my wardrobe somewhere… just in case I needed them.

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Melissa Mitchell April 24, 2012 at 11:54 am

I love that you're bringing back Muse Wars. When I started it, I was so full of ideas and inspiration. Then I got sick and my muse, she vanished.

Maybe you can coax her back, Lori.

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Ingrid April 22, 2012 at 8:22 pm

The pen that is mightier than the sword. YES. I've written about the power in your blogging journey here: http://destinationdenouement.blogspot.com.au/2012/04/secret-ingredient-in-blogging.html

Kindest regards.

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MummyateMe April 21, 2012 at 5:38 pm

Love your 'If I were, I'd Be' revisited. Must have been so interesting to go back to it. Here's mine http://mummyateme.blogspot.com.au/2012/04/if-i-were-id-be.html

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two thirds done April 21, 2012 at 5:59 am

Nice blog, and very colorful, I had to read with my sunglasses on! I just started a blog and this tells me I need to do a better design, thanks for that

Regards
Tim

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MaidInAustralia April 21, 2012 at 1:07 am

I don't usually get into Memes either. But loving this one and a return to the good old days.

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Amy xxoo April 20, 2012 at 7:55 pm

As you know i'm in need of blog motivation so i am SO stealing this!

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Kim April 20, 2012 at 12:41 pm

I don't usually get into the memes, but I really like this one.
Love the felt too, by the way. :D

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Karen April 20, 2012 at 9:44 am

Love the felt Lori and her brave, bright jelly beans; Love the fantastic hat! :-)
Sunshine on you!

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Madmother April 20, 2012 at 9:01 am

Hmmm.

Didn't really get into the meme's.

So glad Muse Wars is a coming back… tried a couple of times to resurect, to no avail. I do have a Muse Wars group on DP though!

Maybe we can get any takers to join up???

xx

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by Lori Dwyer on February 24, 2014 · 6 comments

Not sponsored. Just cool.

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Olay asked me to do them a make-up tutorial. I’m not exactly sure why. I don’t think the “I just woke up and this is the best I can pull together” look is one anyone wants to emulate.

 

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But I do what I’m told. And I like to win stuff. And this is a competition. A few different looks are to going to be uploaded to FaceBook and whosoever has the best look wins a laptop or something. Which would be awesome. So if I could harness some jellybean power and have you all Like the post, that would be very helpful. You can me out on the Olay FaceBook page, too.

I’ve also been asked to review the Olay CC Cream, which retails for $49.99. To be honest, it’s really good stuff. Forget moisturising, applying primer and then foundation. The CC Cream does it all in one, which is perfect for the time poor and lazy such as I. And it’s light and dewy and doesn’t cake in and make my wrinkles look worse than they already are. And that’s actually the defining factor in picking a foundation for myself- the wrinkle factor. 

I think I’m getting old.

 

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Charlie March 13, 2014 at 1:56 am

I saw this CC Cream on commercials and I want to try it though I’m still searching for reviews. I’m really happy that I read your personal review of the product.
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Casey March 4, 2014 at 5:43 pm

Good review. I’m thinking I might give it a try!

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Megan March 4, 2014 at 3:51 am

As usual you look amazing. I know you are an honest reviewer of things Lori, so I treated myself. I loved it!! My husband of 25 years left me, ran of with his bimbo, left me with 3 kids and cleaned out the bank accounts. It gets better I was in hospital when he texted me the news. I had just been diagnosed with a brain tumour and had knocked my 2 top teeth out when I had a seizure. I’m about to lose my hair have no front teeth have distressed emotionally damaged kids and my husbands advice, ” move on, get a job, no one will notice if you’re bald and have no teeth!! A put down in itself. This Olay CC cream is a great way to pick myself up on a bad day!! One question where do I go to get a MMMItW!!!

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Suzy Mac February 25, 2014 at 9:58 am

Done! Liked & liked :0)
And I do like- i’ve been a dove tinted daycream girl for ten years & I might actually try this
And I agree u look luverly
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Marianne February 25, 2014 at 3:49 am

You look lovely and HAPPY! That comes from more than wrinkle cream!
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Manda February 24, 2014 at 6:35 pm

You look fabulously sunny. Did your vitamin D count come up btw? Good luck for the laptop!

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by Lori Dwyer on March 26, 2010 · 11 comments

Happy FlogYoBlog Friday blogoroonies,

It’s that time of the week again. FlogYoBlog Friday, where we all jump on board Brenda‘s ship and take advantage of her huge popularity and find lots and lots of cool new blogs and oh my goodness it is midnight and I need to go to bed and there is so much reading still left to do! *Ahem*. Never mind that. Find the pretty shiny McLinky below, and feel free to add your blog. Oh, and Brenda, our hostess with the mostest, is just 4 followers off hitting the big 700- so, if you don’t already, please pop on over there and hit the ‘Follow’ button. it will make her happy. And I like making people happy. OK? OK.

That being said, I am going to take advantage of FYBF and all the extra traffic it brings (cheers, B!) and ask you all one quick little question. It’s an easy one, promise.

Do I need a makeover?

Or, not me, so much,as the case may be, but… my blog?

I’m thinking that maybe the white-on-black and skinny Pyzam-ness is starting to look a wee bit dated.

Maybe time for a change?

I could go something pretty like this….


..or this..


Or something a bit funky and different like this one, my personal favorite…


Or, of course,I could just stay as plain ol’ RRSAHM me.


Whaddya reckon? Do let me know, please, I am unbelievably indecisive and utterly useless at making desicions for myself.


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Lori March 30, 2010 at 7:59 pm

I'm voting for the totally awesome one by the totally awesome friend. New template, coming soon!!

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Sarah March 30, 2010 at 6:29 pm

Or you could get something completely awesome made by an equally completely awesome friend ;)

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Mee2 March 30, 2010 at 5:54 pm

I do love your blog how it is. I think I told you that before? I don't remember. If I didn't, I meant to.

Anyway, it's always fun to get a bloggy makeover. If you do make over, I vote for the purple one. Just sayin'.

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Fe March 26, 2010 at 8:47 pm

I really like your current theme… very different from any other blogs that I check! But, if the need for change is overwhelming… no. 3 gets my vote!

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The Fat Lady March 26, 2010 at 6:04 pm

Oh darl, you know we love you no matter you're appearance!

Having said that, we might love a little more if you got the noice purply one – try it and see!

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Heather March 26, 2010 at 1:38 pm

I love the look of your current one or the new third one too. I too love change. My in laws never know what they will find when they come over. I'm always rearranging the house. It's easier than moving (although I hate repainting).

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Thea March 26, 2010 at 1:37 pm

Yeah, got for it! I like the pretty green one. :)

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kbxmas March 26, 2010 at 11:36 am

Of the 3 you posted the 3rd is my fav, but honestly I'm more of a minimalist. I don't like a lot of frilly visual stuff that takes away from the writing. Then again, I don't know what the hell a scarf is.

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Brenda March 26, 2010 at 10:43 am

I like the 3rd one. It's funky and cool. Kinda like us. Yes?!

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lori March 26, 2010 at 10:20 am

Spring must be in the air, because I was thinking the same thing. I am soo ready for a change on my blog. The middle flowery one is beautiful and if I were changing, that's what I'd do. I like the last one too, it's kind of funky like you. Personally, I don't get tired of looking at your blog – I think its beautiful, but if you're ready for a change, I say go for it too!

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Lucy March 26, 2010 at 8:59 am

I'll be honest, I love love love what you have now!

BUT, and here's the rub…….I am with you on the need for a makeover. I am doing one as we speak, kinda.

So go for it I say.

Blog makeovers are like a colourant from Coles: cheap and non permanant!

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by Lori Dwyer on October 21, 2013 · 9 comments

I know I’m not the only one, who has trouble with this ‘being an adult’ thing. So this post is for all of us, who hate making phone calls and wish Real Life would run itself sometimes.

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I’m not sure I have what it takes to be an adult. It occurs to me, every now and then, that I’m not very good at it.

I hate making phone calls. Talking to insurance companies and making appointments is like a slow form of torture.

I’m also awful at returning phone calls, and text messages. Texts can sit on my phone, unread for days, before I finally take a peak at them.

I really intensely dislike vegetables. And washing up.

I leave most things- especially the important ones- to the last available minute.

Most of my socks have holes in them, and I don’t own a single pair of matching bra and undies.

I don’t unpack my groceries as soon as I bring them home.

I get parking fines and library fines on a semi-regular basis.

I go for days without washing my hair. I forget to floss and I rarely wash my face before bedtime.

I’d rather ride my bike than answer my email.

I’ve never even once mowed my own lawn.

Even though I don’t dread school pick up as much here as I did in the TinytrainTown, I’m still not very good at making small talk.

I’d rather surf Reddit, or get lost in an hedonistic session of book reading, than fill out Centrelink forms or do the washing.

And I need to cut my toenails.

That one, I should be able to manage today, surely.

But if not… it can wait. Until tomorrow.

Or one day next week.

 

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recepti March 27, 2014 at 3:40 am

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Anonymous November 5, 2013 at 10:55 pm

Reality bites! That’s not just a movie title– it’s all too true!

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Griff October 21, 2013 at 11:34 pm

Answer the phone? No thanks, nasty things come from phones…debts, bad news, angry people. I bet my dirty clothes pile is bigger than yours
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Kymmie @ a day in the life of us October 21, 2013 at 8:59 pm

Oh yes Lori, I hear you loud and clear. Sometimes I just want to go on holidays all by myself. On a regular basis.

It seems I haven’t been here for a while, and I love your new look. You look so cute with short hair. CUUTE! x
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Mel G October 21, 2013 at 7:42 pm

Oh my god, yes!! Where do you stand on leg-shaving tho?

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Whoa, Molly October 21, 2013 at 6:19 pm

“Most of my socks have holes in them, and I don’t own a single pair of matching bra and undies.”

I thought I was the only one! I am the worst lady-type person ever.

I also: am always running out of money, often eat tubs of ice cream for dinner, watch whole tv series over weekends, get angry at inanimate objects and forget SIMPLY EVERYTHING ALWAYS.
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Kristina October 21, 2013 at 5:26 pm

Completely with you on this…. my house is a certifiable disaster, I have a pile of unopened mail on my counter, and I cannot find my primary credit card. But what did I spend today doing?

Messing around on my computer.

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Manda October 21, 2013 at 3:57 pm

You wanna come play in the ball pit with us tomorrow?

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Lori Dwyer October 21, 2013 at 4:21 pm

Most definitely- I’ll text you :)
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by Lori Dwyer on June 19, 2013 · 10 comments

Travel comedown, I discovered those first few days after coming home from Borneo, is irritating but not malicious.

The first few hours after stepping off a plane and back into the real world, following the wonder of going overseas, are bizarre. There’s a feeling of displacement and down-the-rabbit-hole surrealism. It’s stranger being home, somehow, than it was being away.

Nothing has changed. I’ve lived a thousand experiences in a place far from here. The world I left has continued, nonplussed by my absence.

There’s a rush and a burble of stories and memories and photos that I share with whoever will listen; the words running out of my mouth faster than my mind’s eye can keep up with them. Being home again allows the whole experience to become encapsulated in a mental bubble of smells and sights and sounds. The holiday now has a feel to it… a past tense. Or a ‘felt’, perhaps, rather than ‘feel’. A story, completed.

The comedown simmers slowly, big bubbles of sad and ‘Oh, it’s over’, that pop slowly and spill forth with the simple desire to do it all again. It’s not depressing. More just… annoying.

But knowing that I did it, I’ve done that- I’ve trekked the jungles of Borneo and seen orangutans, up close and personal in the wild– is awesome.

Really, with itchy feet and a new-found lack of fear to get in the way, the only question now is… what adventure do I work on next?

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Carol June 20, 2013 at 9:38 pm

One day you’ll be walking down a street & a smell or a sound will slap your senses and you will be back in a forest in Borneo with the orangutans.
Nothing has changed here; you have. Scratch your feet at every opportunity :)

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Julia Shanon June 20, 2013 at 2:43 am

Hi Lori, its rare for a woman to like this kind of activity, and by the way last month i’ve been to Bali Indonesia, you should go there to, there are lot of things to do!
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Jane Francis June 19, 2013 at 6:46 pm

Love reading your blog once again and I am sure there are many who have felt like you.. I know I did way back in the 90′s when I returned after 3 years abroad! You are right in saying, nothing changes back home while our adventures overseas are endless.. Look forward to reading more … X

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Lori Dwyer June 20, 2013 at 3:39 pm

Thanks so much Jane :) xx
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Emma Joyce June 19, 2013 at 5:02 pm

Lori, well said and I’m also glad it’s not as bad as you thought ! TOTALLY can relate though but don’t worry , there are many more adventures to be had ! Always love your blog , keep on amazing us all with your words ! x

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Lori Dwyer June 20, 2013 at 3:41 pm

Thank you so much Emma. And it was nowhere near as bad as I thought- lucky :p xx
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Whoa, Molly! June 19, 2013 at 11:57 am

I understand the whole post-holiday feeling well, though I imagine it must be intensified a thousandfold when you are coming back from such a different experience/faraway place. I’m hoping I get to know what that feels like soon!

Also, the new lack of fear? So, so awesome. I’ve heard it’s a big world out there. :)
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Lori Dwyer June 19, 2013 at 4:58 pm

“I’ve heard it’s a big world out there.”

That pretty much sums it up. It’s like “OMG why did I wait this long to do this?!” ;) xx
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Lisa June 19, 2013 at 10:58 am

You desribe that ‘after travel’ feeling so well! I always thought of it as like a post-holiday melancholy, where everything that is usually normal and mundane feels strange. It’s a bizarre feeling!
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Lori Dwyer June 19, 2013 at 4:21 pm

Isn’t it though? Not nearly as much of a downer as I was predicting, though, so that was good!
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by Lori Dwyer on March 18, 2013 · 12 comments

A fortnight or so ago, I was invited to a real actual red–carpet movie premiere. With free popcorn and introduction speeches from the director and famous people and everything. It was one of those cases of “I’m almost sure these people don’t know who I am, but I’m taking full advantage of that and going anyway”. (Just to disclaimerise– this was before I took my stance against Pointless Corporate Whoring. And I would have gone anyway. C’mon, jellybeans… it’s a move premiere. With a ’feel good’ dress code. That sounds like fun, yes?)

The worst movie I've ever seen.

The worst movie I’ve ever seen.

 

Anyway. Despite rude and surly cinema staff, it was fun. My mate Kristabelle was my date for the evening. We dressed up. There were goodie bags. And we sat next to famous–type–people, like a movie critic and some Olympic swimmer. We saw Magda in the flesh and she was just as cool as you’d think.

It’s just a pity that the movie sucked so very, very hard.

I wanted to like this movie, I really did. I was prepared to like it, cheering it on. The story of a stay at home mum of two who starts web casting to break the monotony and ease the boredom, and ends up being ’discovered’ and running away to the big city and having to decide between fame and Ronan Keating as her husband doing the washing up in nothing but a pink apron– what’s not to like, really?

It started well– soaring cinematography over green hills, a fresh–faced actress named Laura Michelle Kelly in drab olive clothes, spinning headily in a glorious Sound of Music parody. Which was interrupted by a shot of her twin toddlers eating cow-poo. I know, it should have been hysterical. Unfortunately, at the same time, I think most of the crowd realized that Laura Michelle Kelly– let’s just call her LMK– couldn’t actually act. At all.

The point you realise she can't act.

The point you realise she can’t act.

To give her props where they’re due, when LMK was singing, dancing, performing the musical numbers (did I mention this was a musical? No? Well. There you go), it was impossible to take your eyes off her. In song, LMK was awesome.

But again, acting probably isn’t her strong point.

Surprisingly, Ronan Keating could act; and did a rather good job with a slightly ridiculous role as a whale researcher who helicopters himself out to Antarctica on an annoyingly regular basis, leaving his wife and kids stuck in rural Tasmania while he listens to the songs of humpbacks. (Yes, really).

Magda, as we already know, can also really actually act. It’s just that the script was so cheesy and so unintentionally sexist it came close to being downright offensive.

On one hand you have LMK, main character, singing her heart out at every opportunity. All the other women in the movie (including a cute, pregnant Pia Miranda and a funny–as–herself Corrinne Grant) hate her. But every single guy she meets– from seventeen year old nerd to tanned, corny pony-tailed busker– fall instantly in love with her. In fact, the pony–tailed, singing busker LMK meets in Sydney seemed to serve no plot purpose whatsoever. Except possibly to perform a song that demonstrated perfectly how not transfer that stage musical feeling to the big screen.

On the other end of the scale, Magda’s character was the ’corporate bitch’, a woman who left her husband in order to shatter the glass ceiling and holds LMK’s devotion to her family and her husband in disdain. Or so we are led to believe. But, evidently, Magda can’t be entirely happy about that decision. Because every time something goes wrong with her somewhat lame evil plan, we see her locked in a bathroom stall eating cookies from her handbag.

Why? I don’t know. No reason was given, nor even alluded to. Maybe it was just because its clearly impossible to have a larger woman on screen without alluding, in some way, to her eating habits.

For pity’s sake.

That was compounded by Magda’s declaration, in the movie’s final scenes, that her husband had, in fact, left her because she couldn’t have children. And that was why she pursued her career as viciously as she did and, apparently, was why she was such a cold hard bitch. She also declared that she was ’Fabulous!’… but not in any way that suggested she really thought she was.

Because, of course, her character couldn’t possibly have been a woman who chose to remain childless, chose not to get married. She couldn’t have genuinely been so passionate about her career that she was happy with the decisions she had made. She couldn’t have even been a lesbian. Not in this movie. Not in a movie where the lead character makes the decision to abandon her career completely, and return to an existence she finds unfulfilling, so that her husband will come back to her and her children won’t be scarred for life. Oh, and, bonus!– the formerly bitchy clique of local women seemingly embrace her. Enough to don multi– coloured rubber gloves and participate in a sing–along. Because, of course, she is one of them now.

Ronan's bum- the best bit of the movie. Now you don't need to see the movie at all. Ever.

Ronan’s bum- the best bit of the movie. Now you don’t need to see the movie at all. Ever.

By this stage, I wouldn’t have been surprised if they’d cut to a shot of Magda, alone and crying, surrounded by empty biscuit packets and chocolate wrappers. They didn’t. They did provide an unintentionally hilarious comic ending. Which wasn’t helped at all by the fact that it was filmed in an area very close to TinyTrainTown (where I live), and all Kristabelle and I could say was “Holy crap!! That’s Corbett’s Hardware!!”

Anyway. After a long winded duet with lots of cheesy footage of Ronan Keating standing, boy-band style, on the deck of a whale research ship with badly green-screened footage of the Antarctic rolling blandly behind him; he somehow commandeers a helicopter which he has to set down in the grassy courtyard of a small ‘Tasmanian’ town. It’s playing humpback whale songs from speakers. (Again… really). Ronan, with real actual tears in his eyes, proceeds to compare himself to a humpback whale and declare his love to LMK using some strange synonym that I’m not entirely sure I understood (possibly because Kristabelle and I were laughing so hard by this point that we had actual real tears in our own eyes).

Cue musical number, and they all (except, presumably, Magda) live happily ever after.

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And this is what’s wrong with the Aussie film industry. For every awesome movie by the Edgerton brothers… there’s also a Goddess.

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Miss Cinders March 26, 2013 at 10:48 am

Dammit! I wanted to see that movie, and now I discover the butt I have totally looked away from seeing every time its shown anywhere – or maybe not – is the best thing.

*sigh* guess I’ll just enjoy the butt and save my money.

Awesome review Lori.

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K March 19, 2013 at 9:14 pm

Hahaha, best review ever! Thank you Lori. Please do more movie reviews.

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Sarah March 19, 2013 at 6:24 pm

It was filmed in Picton, yay! Pity it sucked so badly. Glad you got a laugh out of it :)

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Bronnie March 19, 2013 at 5:19 pm

Pity about the movie – but I loved the movie review!
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boodie March 19, 2013 at 5:18 pm

I know some other people who were at the same premiere and the loved it, they said the musical numbers were cheesy but fun, rather like Mama Mia. The other reviews I’ve read have said much the same thing, cheesy but fun.
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Kerri Sackville March 19, 2013 at 5:14 pm

Bugger. I was just on a panel with Joanna Weinberg (who wrote the movie) and she was SO nice and I really really REALLY wanted the movie to be great. Maybe other people will like it? Doesn’t sound especially like my cup of tea…

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Kristy Komadina March 19, 2013 at 7:42 am

You’ve confirmed for me what I kind of suspected from seeing the (relentless) ads for this movie.

The whole premise is completely daggy anyway.
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CAM March 18, 2013 at 9:46 pm

They can sponsor you all they like to write movie reviews if you tell the truth like this every time!! Now I want to hear of a movie you’ve seen and loved. I trust you!!!

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Sapphyre March 18, 2013 at 4:23 pm

Forgot to say… the worst movie I’ve ever seen was To Die For (Nicole Kidman).

I really wanted to see it. I went with my two housemates. One of them begged to leave, one of them feel asleep, I watched the whole thing… and wondered why I bothered LOL

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Emily March 18, 2013 at 1:47 pm

Thanks for your honesty! I see about one – maybe two – movies a year, so this will DEFINITELY not be on the list!
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Amy@New Adventures March 18, 2013 at 1:44 pm

Lol… Tell us what you really think Lori! I love how brutally honest your being – thanks to you, I won’t be wasting my precious child free time on this movie ( despite the promise of a semi-naked Ronan )….

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Sapphyre March 18, 2013 at 10:09 am

Damn, this is not the first bad review I’ve seen. And the film clip was so promising!

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by Lori Dwyer on May 24, 2012 · 12 comments

Some people, we choose to grieve publicly.

There’s no right or wrong way to grieve, no right or wrong that dictates who is allowed to grieve for whom in the grand scheme of things. Often people in mourning, especially in those first fresh few weeks, are held up to speculation and exposed to countless judgements– are they grieving ‘properly’, is whatever they’re doing ‘healthy’, are they ‘stable’.

There is no correct way to grieve. No one in the depths of grief is particularly stable, and actions don’t have much forethought… When it’s one foot in front of the other, the struggle is doing anything at all, not assessing it through the filter of societal norms to decide if the behavior is acceptable or not.

I’ve said, many time in the past, that initially I didn’t so much make a conscious choice to blog my way through what happened… I just wrote out of instinct, because it was all I could do, the only constant I had left in a life that had been thrown completely off it’s orbit. But eventually, when the water got hot… I had to make a conscious choice, whether to continue to mourn my husband in the eyes of thousands of people online…. or to stop.

And I made the conscious choice to keep going. To bleed, to grieve, to cry, to keen, all in public, in the shade of a million eyes, some brimming with compassion… others disgusted.

I know there are many people who find this blog distasteful. That’s OK– to be honest, sometimes I question my own sense of sanity with what I publish here. And I’m OK with it… I see the good it does every time I open another message or an email or a comment saying thank you. And, in the ultimate act of selfishness– this web page is my therapy, where I write out my pain. If it ceased being useful to me, I would stop writing it, and maybe not look back.

Back in the Blissful, Purple Before; even before I started blogging, I was a member of a parenting forum. One gorgeous woman was excited and hopeful one day, her pregnancy ticker counting up and up and currently at around 36 weeks…. and the next time I logged on, there was of thread posted by her, announcing her son’s name (Ianto), his birth date… and the aching fact that her little boy had been stillborn (but born, still).

My heart broke for her, in the way it used to back then… I had no measure for her pain, I just knew it must be awful.

And I watched in fascination as she took that pain and held it close… and, at the same time, flung it out into the world.

With assistance from a friend of ours, she created a blog in memory of her baby boy, and wrote out her pain, her love, her longing for her child. She published the beautiful photos that had been taken of her tiny, still little man. She created a memorial for him that took my breath away with it’s raw honesty, it’s amazing way of casting a rainbow on a tragedy so filled with pain it seemed to suck the colour from the very air around it.

Without meaning to, I emulated her and her noble, public grieving. I took my own pain and flung it across the interwebs to be felt by thousands. And it’s not a decision I regret– how can I, when I have no concept of how the alternative, to grieve quietly and silently, would feel?

As I said, there is no right or wrong way to do this. While I love people who are rawly honest, who speak their truth loudly and unflinchingly; it’s not that I think grieving quietly is a disservice to anyone. It’s just my hope that no one ever ever feels forced into silence… that if they wish to speak of their grief, they can, and they do; without worrying about the reactions of people who have been raised in a culture that is inherently uncomfortable both with death and with any expression of untempered emotion.

I watched, and blogged, Kristie’s amazing speech at DPCon12; listened of her scream her son’s name in the agony it was felt every time she whispered it. I remember discussing with my shrink, in the aftermath of Tony’s funeral, how women in some cultures are expected to wail and moan over the coffin of their loved new, to beat their chests and pull at their hair.

Had I have tried that, I may have been locked up. Small minded people with nothing better to do still discuss my behavior at my husbands funeral, how strange it was… but what’s normal, when you’re saying goodby to the love of your life for the very last time?

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One of my blog readers pointed me toward these pictures a while back now. They show the dignified Mrs Nancy Reagan fare welling her husbands coffin… there is so much beauty in them. She holds on to that wood as if it is her man, as if the coolness is his skin pressing her cheek one final time. There is a part of me that envy’s the woman in these photos, part of me that wishes I had done the same… broke the numbness, felt some kind of passion. I remember approaching the dark box that held my husband for the last time. Laying a rose on it. Feeling a surreal pulse beat in my mind… his body is in there. And all I could think was what I had dressed him in. And tried not imagine his body, stiff and cold and grey, stitched in places where organs had been removed.

When it comes down to it… maybe I’m less of of physical mourner. More of a written one. (An email months ago now from a friend, describing the heart wrenching death of her son… “That was the first time I’ve written it down” she says, and that’s such an alien concept to me I don’t even know where to begin with understanding it).

We all grieve differently. We’re uncomfortable with it, in our society, and I see the unfortunate effects of that in my everyday life. But I do wonder if, in those other cultures where highly verbal and psychical grief is required, do people who would rather grieve quietly, embalm themselves silently in salt… do they feel out of place, pressured to mourn in a way they provides no relief?

Probably. Possibly. The deck is always stacked, no matter which way you look it at. But there is no correct way to do this… being in pain, visible or otherwise; it’s always going to make someone uncomfortable. That’s inevitable, and, truly, off the scale of consideration when you’ve lost someone you love.

There’s just that deep, black grief… and getting through it. Any damn way you can.

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beccy October 8, 2012 at 9:36 pm

Hi, I am really impressed by your blog. I am yet to lose someone close to me but I think about what it must be like quite a lot. I think that one of western culture's biggest shortcomings is our lack of protocol/tradition for grieving. Not that people should necessarily follow a protocol, but I wonder if the cultures that do have an understood way of grieving and mourning have an easier time with it. When I see the women and men on television wailing in the streets for their dead beloveds in "other countries" I feel sort of envious that it's normal for them to do that. It must feel good, in a way. Like screaming when you are giving birth (if you need to scream). Anyway a friend of mine who lost both her parents in her early 20s (one to suicide, one to cancer) made this website about grief and I think it is quite beautiful. http://www.welivewithoutyou.com/

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whatkatedidnext May 25, 2012 at 12:41 pm

Yep, you said it. Thanks Lori.

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Dorothy Krajewski May 25, 2012 at 9:27 am

I wish our society was more open to public mourning. In some way, grieving in public validates our pain, our loss.

I grieved by writing, too. I still do. When the wounds were fresh, I broke down in tears a few times, in public. I know it made others uncomfortable. I'm glad there were a few that had the sense to put their arm around me and tell me it was going to be OK.

Now I'm crying, because it still feels like nobody really understands what I've been trough. I am meant to get on with my life. And I do. But deep inside, the grief lurks and pops up in the most unexpected moments. Like now.

Much love to you, Lori.

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mml May 25, 2012 at 1:56 am

Thank you for being so honest. My fiance was killed last year and I NEED to be open with my grief, it eats me alive otherwise. But I find little support in my openness. It helps so much, even though I don't know you, to read your posts and feel like I'm not alone, that I'm not crazy, that other people feel this way too. (((hugs)))

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Hope’s Mama May 24, 2012 at 9:02 pm

I grieved openly and loudly and to some, obnoxiously. And I lost friends. And I don't care. There was no rule book. I just did what felt right, and took things as they came.
Nearly four years on from the bomb that went off in my life, I'm ok. I'm not not stuck in the pit I once was, but I still walk with a bit of a limp. I'm forever changed, and that's ok, because she mattered.
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Melissa May 24, 2012 at 8:05 pm

Another amazing and inspiring post Lori. I agree with you 100% there is no "right" way to grieve. In fact, I think there's no "right" way to do much of anything. We all find our own way, but in today's culture, we're bombarded by messages of "right" and "wrong". It's so harmful.

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Debyl1 May 24, 2012 at 6:52 pm

Im grieving the loss of my mum already and she hasnt died yet but slowly drifting away from us as her mind and body deteriorate.Does that make me strange.I dont know.People keep telling me well she has had a good long life and this is to be expected,as though that is supposed to make my grief evaporate like it is meaningless.Your grief is your grief and people need to respect that.

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dachlostar May 24, 2012 at 6:27 pm

Ianto has a little sister now :)

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Anonymous May 24, 2012 at 3:17 pm

My way of mourning ? I slept with his jumper draped over a pillow and imagined it was him. I sniffed his clothes endlessly, and I wrote in a long, pain-filled diary I have still kept

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Hi, I’m Shannon, May 24, 2012 at 11:18 am

I admire your honesty in your posts Lori . Writing can be a great source of healing and getting things off your chest. People choose if they want to read it. If they don't agree then they should just find something else to read.

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Anonymous May 24, 2012 at 9:56 am

So fucking sad, man.

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Eccles May 24, 2012 at 3:07 pm

How we grieve, how we are perceived to grieve, how long we grieve… it's up to those of who are grieving. I was told last week by my daughter that I should be over my grieving by now – I found my sister so many minutes after she had died, I saw my father short minutes after he had died… (no-one is yet to acknowledge my shock in fnding my sister. My Dad's passing was unexpectedly expected). At my sister's funeral, in front of some 100+ people, I walked up to her coffin and hugged it. I laid a kiss upon the top of it… much like Mrs Reagan, yet not. You are the only person I've told that to. Perhaps because you are the only person who will/can inderstand!
Now I am told that I should be over it??!! We have spoken of our grief, you & I, Lori; I'm with you. For as long as it takes, for as loudly, as quietly, as privately or publicly – we grieve and some days we will cope better than others.
It is what it is and we will do what we do. For those people who cannot cope or understand us, it is their problem to deal with, not ours. We have enough.
Head up my dear friend, if I may call you that. It is a sad fact that in our part of the world we need people like to you to give so many of us permission to "keen", to show that grief and death are not taboo subjects that are to be hidden away in the darkness of night. That there is nothing to fear in death, in grieving. You have taught me that.
Thank you for all that you do and all that you have done. I am proud and honoured to know you!!

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by Lori Dwyer on March 17, 2010 · 8 comments

Blog ‘dat, peoples,

It’s Blog This Challenge Number 36. The assignment, should you choose to accept it, it to take us through your week, your day, or a leedle bit of your life. Entries close tonight, voting starts tomorrow.

Now, my life is exceptionally dull. So I’m happy to bring you just the first hour. Enjoy!

Chop, it’s still dark. It’s not wake up time yet.
Chop, honey, see how it’s still dark outside? Still not morning.
OK. You wanna come into mummy’s bed?
Lay down and go to sleep. Please.
I mean it. Lay down and got to sleep.
Ahh, now you’ve woken your sister.Good morning Bump.
Ok, you play with your cars while mum feeds Bump.
We sit on our bottoms on the bed, please.
No jumping, please.
Chop, sit down now!
*Sigh*
OK, let’s go down for breakfast.
You sit there, Bump. I’ll be with you in a minute.
Chop, Vegemite or jam?
Chop?
Chop?!
Vegemite or jam?
Hold on, Bump, mummy’s coming.
Hold on, sweetie, I’m coming.
I’m coming.
Chop, you must be finished breakfast if you’re throwing it all over the floor.
Finish your toast, please.
*Sigh*
Ok, monkey, let me wipe your face and hands, please.
Come back here!
One hand, other hand, face. Thank you.
Now go and play while I dress your sister.
Chop, do not throw things at your sister’s head.
OK, your turn. Which shirt today, this or this?
No, we can’t wear Elmo, he’s in the wash.
OK, come here please.
You can’t wear your pyjama’s all day.
Really.
*Sigh*
Do not throw things at your sister’s head. I mean it.
Righto then, Mummy needs five minutes to get dressed, OK?…..
What on earth is going on down there?!?!

We’ll leave it there. Really, you don’t want to hear the rest. Ahhh, it’s a good life, if you’re into that kinda thing….

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Lucy March 20, 2010 at 9:21 pm

Ahhhhhhh. It's not just me then?! Lovely post. Lovely snap of you too!

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Mee2 March 20, 2010 at 2:33 pm

Oh yes, very familiar. I vote for you.

BTW, you are sooo pretty.

Thanks for commenting on my blog. You make me laugh. I love it.

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FoodMuster March 19, 2010 at 8:31 pm

Ya gotta love it don't you:)

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Michelle March 18, 2010 at 11:02 pm

Ah love it!
Mummyhood is absolute bliss!
:)

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lori March 18, 2010 at 10:58 am

I remember those days. I still get woken up early, but now it's cause my girls are fighting over the bathroom, or who clogged the toilet, or who stole whos brush, mascara, or shoes. That's when I throw something at their heads.

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kbxmas March 18, 2010 at 1:55 am

It's pretty hard to make motherhood sound sexy, isn't it?!

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Abby March 17, 2010 at 5:10 pm

That all sounds pretty familiar! If I substitute in my kids names it could be any given day of the week for us :)

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Brenda March 17, 2010 at 3:57 pm

We're living the high life, baby. We truly are! Mwahahahaha !!!

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The Most Awesome GiveAway Ever

by Lori Dwyer on July 13, 2012 · 46 comments

“How long was I gone?”
“Hundred and forty-seven days yesterday. Uh … hundred and forty-eight today. ‘Cept today doesn’t count, does it? How long was it for you … where you were?”
“Longer.”

Buffy and Spike on Buffy’s return from what they thought was Hell, Buffy The Vampire Slayer.

Picture not related- yet. Stick with me here.
If you’ve read this blog for long enough you’ll know that there isn’t a quote I don’t love. (And if you haven’t read this blog for long and you’re just here because you heard I’m giving away a huge arse tv…. welcome.) Genre is irrelevant. I don’t discriminate between song lyrics, TV series, movies, books or people actually speaking In Real Life (the novelty!).
Quotes effect me. Even those that are deep fried in cheese and corn and pull at your heart stings like a Huggies commercial. And I admit that with much sheepishness- I am one of those people who feel all inspired by declarations of love, bravery, independence and sprit.


“My name is Merida, first born of this clan, and I choose to fight for my own hand in marriage!”
From Pixar’s Brave. To be said with a thick Scottish accent, preferably while dressed like this.
The more obscure the quote, the harder I dig it. If you know what I mean when I say “Damn you, loch ness monster, you ain’t getting no tree fiddy!” or “He’s not the messiah, he’s a very naughty boy”, then we’d probably be good mates.
We know I love this one from The Crow. Jerry Maguire is the undisputed champion of repeatable movie quotes– it’s unfortunate that mentioning Tom Cruise has become a one way ticket to people thinking you might be a bit weird, because that’s somewhat dulled the movies appeal. Forget “You had me at hello”, or even Show me the money!, the best scene from Jerry McGuire takes much of its power from it’s inherent silence- My favorite aunt is hearing impaired.”
“Who cares what she looks like? All she knows how to do is walk on her hands.”
Bette Midler, shrunken, in Beaches.

I grew up feeding my post–punk, mid–grunge, pre–emo social self on movies like Clerks, Dogma (“You knew Christ?” “Knew him?! Brother owes me twelve bucks!!”) and Empire Records, (“What’s with today, today?”) which remains my undisputed favorite movie of all time (“Shock me, shock me, shock me with that deviant behavior”).
“Love… it’s a gift, Alex not an obligation.”
 From sappy mid–90′s rom com Fools Rush In, featuring that guy who we only know as Chandler Bing. (Or “Chanandler Bong”, as the case may be).

I think we see we’re I’m going with this, yes? You want to win this mind–blowingly awesome prize (we’ve come a long way from the Crappest GiveAway Ever) I want to know your favorite quote, be it from literature, song, stage or digital AV entertainment (that’s a fancy way of saying ‘TV and movies’).
Win this… I know.
What exactly are we playing for? Well. It’s a 119cm LG cinema 3D Smart TV. When I say 3D, I mean 3D– you just hit the 3D button and whatever you happen to be watching pops out of the screen (glasses included, obviously). The smart remote works like a Wii controller- you wave it around to move the little arrow on the screen- and the TV connects to the Net and to your PC. You can check out the fun the kidlets and I had with it on YouTube.
I know. Coolest thing ever.
Here’s the fine print.
Each person is entitled to one entry. For an entry to be valid, you must leave a comment on this post with the details of your entry. That comment MUST be accompanied by a valid email address– all entries without an email address will be disqualified. (If you’re on Blogger, make sure you’re logged in then click this link to set your email address to reply-able.)
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To enter, let me know your favorite quote. You can simply write the quote into the comment box if you wish– but that may not help you win. 
Bonus consideration will be given for YouTube, audio or other links. 
Super bonus consideration will be given to those who get creative– artwork, home made YouTube clips, photos, poetry, etc all make me smile. Feel free to upload your entry to whatever media (your own blog, Flickr, YouTube, BookFace, IG, wherever) you prefer and leave me a link with your comment so I can check it out. 
Alternatively, if you don’t have a platform to upload to, feel free to email me your submission (in doing so you give permission for me to upload it to and promote it through the social media channels of my choosing).
The entry the amuses, confuses, bemuses or otherwise entertains me the most wins. I reserve the right to illicit the opinions of others while making this choice. My decision is final and no discussion or bitching of any kind will be entered into.
This one’s open to Australian residents only.
 
Entries open Friday 13th July and close midnight (AEST) on Friday 27th July- you’ve got two weeks to impress me.

The winner will be announced via RRSAHM’s FaceBook page and Twitter feed, and probably in the newsletter as well. Winners will be emailed and have 48 hours to respond to that email with their postal address, or the prize will be redrawn.

And your time starts… now. Do try not to maim the other competitors in the rush, please.

“If you lived here, you’d be home now.”
Girl, Interrupted.

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