I know… it’s been a while.
And I’m publishing a sponsored post tomorrow- the last one that has to be done, that I lined up before my blogging mojo evaporated a few weeks ago.
I don’t know why. I just can’t write. I look deep into myself, the way I’ve always done, trying to share what’s happening in my head…
And I draw a blank.
Then I worry about having such a weird, contorted form of blogger’s block. Then I worry more because something still feels like I need to write, I just can’t. Then I stress about the people who read this, who care about me, and I feel as though I’m letting them down by not blogging.
Eventually, I get to the point where thinking about blogging at all causes a massive burl of anxiety in my gut. Then I procrastinate, and ignore all of it, and hope it goes away. And it doesn’t and the cycle repeats itself.
I’m not sure where I’m going with this. I’m not at all ready to give up my blog…. I’m selfish, and I want it here when I need it. But I seem to be having some kind of weird internal crisis. And I didn’t want to go and spam you all with another sponsored post without some explanation of where I’ve been, why I’ve been so quiet.
It’s not a good one… but it’s the truth. And it’ll do. For now.
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It sounds like what Katie said – that you’re just happy and maybe you don’t need the release of writing right at this moment. And that’s ok. Your blog is for you, so write when you feel like it, and don’t when you don’t. And don’t feel guilty.
I read your Mercedes post. Boy, those kidlets sure got big!
I go through the exact same thing almost every week! There is something that just keeps pushing us forward – it’s called passion and it can be sooooo frustrating!
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I’m glad you’re still around, I’ve been thinking of you xx
as long as you’re ok. That’s all that matters!
Sounds like you need a break. Maybe give yourself at last a couple of weeks off where you promise not to do any blogging at all (just like a holiday) then see how you feel. My theory on blogging is that I’ll stop when it’s not fun anymore. Take care x
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I think that writing (blogging) has ebbs and flows. Just like most creative aspects. Maybe you’re just exercising your creativity elsewhere, but the writing feels like a habit & that’s why it’s nagging at you?
I’m glad to see your post! Don’t think you owe us anything. We just like you, that’s why we follow. If you don’t got the words, you just don’t got em. I’m in exactly the same boat as you – I’ve not blogged in quite some time. I have nothing to say, probably for the first time in my life, and it’s scary. Everyday I think, ‘I’ll try to blog today’ and everyday I draw a blank. It’s so disheartening. It’s not because nothing is going on – so much is. I just don’t know how to say it.
TL;DR – Good to see you, and I’m totally feeling you. X
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Have you considered that the urge to spill your thoughts upon the page might be because you’re happy? It’s true that it’s easier to write about shit than sunshine.
It might not be a block at all, just a change in direction.
Maybe ask yourself, what would you say if you knew no one was listening …
K x
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That’s a word missing from the first sentence which makes it totally confusing … it should read Have you considered that the urge to spill your thoughts upon the page might be *GONE* because you’re happy?
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Glad to hear you are traveling A..O..K… :))
Hi Lori,
We’ll be here when you get back
Just glad you’re fine and happy…
Jk
You don’t owe anyone anything. Maybe you just need to live for a while. We’ll all be lurking around if you feel the urge to write again..