I’m low on sunshine, the doctor says. It’s funny because that’s exactly how I feel.
I have blood drawn, thick and sticky-red, and the tests come back saying I am low on Vitamin D
I don’t know how, says the Most Amazing Man. You sit in the sun more than anyone I know.
And that’s true- I am a reptile, a cold blooded mammal. I am a sun seeker. I crave the warmth soaking into my skin. Without even conciously realizing it, I trace its path across the backyard, sunning myself whenever I can.
I bask in the warmth and sunshine of Sydney while I’m there, and the few hot days we have in Melbourne on my return.
I feel a bit like myself again, after days spent with my family and friends. There’s something replenishing about being with people who know you, know all your nuances and downfalls and quirks, and love you any way. Right now, I feel sunny again.
I’m trying to have faith in the universe. I’m hanging onto a thread of feeling ‘normal’ again, hoping it doesn’t disappear.
But the ground feels shaky. And they say the rain is going to set in again.