Update.

by Lori Dwyer on January 9, 2011 · 225 comments

A very quick update. From Lori. I am so numb right now, I’m not sure what to think. Every second, every minute of this, is a nightmare. A rollercoaster.

Yeasterday, my husband was responsive to touch and touch. He moved his feet and opened his eyelids. I was able to tell him I love him, and I forgive him and that I know what happened was just a horrible, horrible accident.

Today, the miracle we had yesterday appears to have been a temporary one. All responses are gone. The best indication is that severe brain damage is setting in. It is highly likely, at this point in time, that we turn off Tony’s life support without the next few days.

I can’t begin to explain here…. my life is gone. My heart is broken. I am functioing, because I must, but inside I am broken.

Please, keep praying. My husband is not responding ‘normally’ to what they believe is happening and they still don’t quite know what is going on. One day, one second at a time. His blood pressure is through the roof, and that needs to come down for anything to get better.

Please, keep us in you prayers. I can feel your support and your love and your best wishes, and it buoys me in my dark hours. I do not know know what is happening. My life, my circumstances, are changing every second. I am only just barely hanging on.

But you lot are constant. I love you. i will never forget this. Thankyou, with everything I have.

And please keep praying for my Tony. Every little bit helps.

Thank you.

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Bec January 16, 2011 at 5:25 pm

Enormous love to you and your family. A sadness paralysis has stopped me from knowing what to say, so I won't even try. You are in my thoughts and I wish it could have been different, so different. You will get through it. XXX

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miss charlies blog January 14, 2011 at 8:15 pm

Lori i am so sorry and devastated for you and your babies.You are in my thoughts and prayers xoxo
R.I.P Tony

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Freckle Face Girl January 11, 2011 at 5:10 pm

I just read your tweet and would like to say how sorry I am. Prayers for strength and love.

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Tina January 10, 2011 at 11:00 pm

Lori, I know that I don't know you, and I do not want to intrude on your life at this terribly devastating time for you. I found your blog through Maxabella Loves and just wanted to pass on my love to you and your family. ~ Tina xx

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Barbara January 10, 2011 at 10:56 pm

Lori, I'm so, so sorry. You and your children are in my thoughts and prayers.

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Judi January 10, 2011 at 10:33 pm

Oh Sweetheart, many prayers and much love sent to you and your littlies. Please know that grief is such a personal thing – there is no right or wrong way to react to the gigantic gaping hole in your heart and life. Be gentle with yourself and just 'be'.
xxxx

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Anonymous January 10, 2011 at 10:27 pm

Lori,
Like many others I don't know you. I'm new to the blogging community who have obviously been a huge support for you, but regardless of this I couldn't not send you my love and wishes
I'm terribly sorry to hear about this tragic news for you and your family. You are in a place that we all fear.
I hope your friends and family help to give you the strength you need to keep going each day.
Jackie

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Photographer Mum January 10, 2011 at 9:57 pm

I am so sorry to hear of your situation. I have read your blog a few times before and although I don't know you, I am praying for you and your family.

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MrsKT January 10, 2011 at 9:56 pm

Lori, so very sorry to read of Tony's passing. You and your children are in my thoughts and prayers at this time.
xxx

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Anonymous January 10, 2011 at 9:38 pm

A terrible tragedy.
Look for help. Don't try to carry this suffering alone.
If it was as mine, the monster was not of your making – it was there all along, dormant, silent.
triminded

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Suzie January 10, 2011 at 9:37 pm

My heart goes out to you.

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Anonymous January 10, 2011 at 9:27 pm

I don't know you, but we have mutual friends on Twitter. I'm so so sorry to hear of Tony's passing, and of what your family is going through. I have two very good friends who were widows at very young ages. If I can suggest ywbb.org – it's a very nice site full of young people who have lost their spouses. I'll be praying for you and for your kids.

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Mammamusing January 10, 2011 at 9:19 pm

Lori I'm so so sorry you are going through this.

Oh gosh and reading through these comments I have discovered Tony has passed.

My thoughts are with you and I'm heartbroken for you.

Kate

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Nikki January 10, 2011 at 8:47 pm

So sorry to hear of Tony's passing. My thoughts and prayers are with you, the kids and his family at this horrible time. Sending much love, Nikki xx

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Leonie January 10, 2011 at 8:43 pm

Oh Lori I am so sorry to hear this so sad news – you have all been in my prayers and will continue to be as you grieve and care for your children. Know that so many hold you in their hearts. xx

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Mel January 10, 2011 at 8:28 pm

My thoughts are with you Lori.

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Penny @sshh mummys on the phone January 10, 2011 at 8:24 pm

My children are the same age as yours. I will hold them closer tonight and think of you and yours at this time. I'm so sorry.

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Cathy January 10, 2011 at 8:23 pm

Lori, Our thoughts and prayers are with you, your children and family xx

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Amy January 10, 2011 at 8:18 pm

Much love to you and your children.
So sorry for your loss.
xx

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Cate January 10, 2011 at 8:09 pm

Oh Lori – thinking of you and praying for you.
xxxxx

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Krissy January 10, 2011 at 7:09 pm

I am so sorry for your loss Lori. I have you and your family in my thoughts and prayers.

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Katie January 10, 2011 at 7:05 pm

Lori,
Like many people posting comments here I don't know you personally but I love reading your blog. I am so very sorry for your loss. Please know you and your little ones are in my thoughts and prayers and from the many comments here and on other blogs you are treasured and loved by many. xoxo

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Katiegirl January 10, 2011 at 7:03 pm

Just heard the terribly sad news. I don't know what to say, except that I'm thinking of you and you're babies, and willing you the strength to get through. xx

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Suz January 10, 2011 at 6:58 pm

leaving love here for you Lori and all who surround you xx

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Donna January 10, 2011 at 6:54 pm

I am devastated for you and your family. May you know in the face of such tragedy you will never be alone, too many people care about you. In my thoughts and prayers always x

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peterg January 10, 2011 at 6:40 pm

Lori, my wife told me of the story last night, and of the latest news tonight. I am so sorry that you and your kids are going through this. Our thoughts and prayers are with you at this horrible time.

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Leanne January 10, 2011 at 6:18 pm

Lori, I just read on another forum that Tony has passed…………….I am so sorry to hear the sad, sad news. I don't know you, nor you me, but this tragedy has really touched me and I wish there was something more I could do other than leave mere words. I hope that one day these words and the words of all the others who have commented, may bring you some very small comfort.

I am sure you will continue to be strong for your precious children, even though the going will be tough at times. Take strength from your memories of your soul mate and know that he will always be with you x

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Melissa January 10, 2011 at 6:12 pm

I have just heard the latest. I'm so incredibly sorry to hear of Tony's passing, Lori. I'm so sorry. There are no words right now.

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Anonymous January 10, 2011 at 6:04 pm

Oh Lori, I don't know you and just came across your blog via mutual twitter friends. My heart, thoughts and prayers are with you, Tony and your family during this time. xx

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Lauren Hale January 10, 2011 at 5:58 pm

I put you both on our prayer list at church today. There are quite a few prayer warriors on your side now, including me. ((hugs))

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ecosopher January 10, 2011 at 5:56 pm

Just saw this on BellyBelly, I'm so sorry to hear your news. I'll be keeping all of you in my thoughts and hoping for the best.

Love and light,
Bec (sasha).

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Karen January 10, 2011 at 5:53 pm

Miracles DO happen! Sending prayers and love!

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Miscellaneous-Mum January 10, 2011 at 5:45 pm

Thinking of you, wishing you strength xx

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Nikki January 10, 2011 at 5:41 pm

Lori, still praying for you, Tony and the kids. I pray for complete healing for Tony and strength for you and the kids. xx

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Sarah January 10, 2011 at 5:13 pm

Sending love & smooches for you gorgeous. We are here for you xx

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Karen January 10, 2011 at 5:11 pm

Lord Jesus, I lift up Tony. Please heal him. Speak to his heart and tell him that You are with him even in this darkness. May he be cared for by gentle, knowledgeable doctors and nurses. And please speak tender loving assurance to Lori and family as they face these circumstances. Let them all know the peace that passes understanding as people around the world lift them all up in prayer.

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Stacey McMillan January 10, 2011 at 5:10 pm

Doubling our prayers Lori, my heart goes out to you, stay strong and lean on our prayers and support if thats what gets you through xxxx

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samanthacurrie.com January 10, 2011 at 4:09 pm

Lori, your link say's leave some love and that's exactly what I want to do. Love to you and your family, Tony is in our thoughts with all best health prayers sent your way.
Sam xx

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SawHole January 10, 2011 at 4:02 pm

Big hugs. Also doctors are not always right.

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petajo January 10, 2011 at 3:58 pm

Lori, we don't know each other but my prayers are with you. I can't imagine what tummults you're going through… I hope you're all okay soon.
peta-jo..xx

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SquiggleMum January 10, 2011 at 3:06 pm

The blogging community is here. We are thinking of you, praying for you, Tony and the kids, and loving you from around the country. xx

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Jacki January 10, 2011 at 2:24 pm

I've been thinking about you and Tony so much and sending love and hope your way. I truly hope everything works out for you both.

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april January 10, 2011 at 1:41 pm

Still all four of us here thinking of and praying for you. Sending you everything good we can.

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Naomi January 10, 2011 at 1:31 pm

I totally believe in the power of prayer and hope that it is enough to help at this time. thinking of you and your cherubs. Naomi xx

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x0xJ January 10, 2011 at 1:02 pm

Lori, i just heard the news of last night from my best friend (who happens to be a friend of Tony's, quite uncanny).
Honey i am so so sorry, my heart is aching for you and i cannot stop the tears. Please know that my family and my thoughts are with you and we are sending you strength and love to you and your children. None of this was your fault, please don't blame yourself.
Much love, Jess.

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MadCow January 10, 2011 at 12:44 pm

xox

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Super Sarah January 10, 2011 at 12:11 pm

Everything I want to say has already been said by people much more eloquent that I. However we are holding you close in our hearts and hoping and praying that a miracle can happen.

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Anonymous January 10, 2011 at 11:51 am

praying for miracles. sending love and best energy and kharma.

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Aussie-waffler January 10, 2011 at 11:26 am

I can't seem to put my thoughts into appropriate words, but I am hoping for the miracle that will bring Tony back to you. XxX

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Watershedd January 10, 2011 at 11:06 am

Still thinking of you all, still holding you and your little ones in our hearts, though we have not met. I'm glad you could speak to him, eyes opened. Wishing you all peace. Watershedd and her GOFA.

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PinkPatentMaryJanes January 10, 2011 at 10:50 am

Thinking about you and praying for you. xx

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Trik82 January 10, 2011 at 10:29 am

Thinking of you and Tony and your family & sending positivity out into the Universe that Tony will pull through and this will all be a distant memory for you all.
Lots of love Moodi Mumma xox

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Kobi January 10, 2011 at 10:26 am

Praying for you and your family Lori :(

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Tamara January 10, 2011 at 10:13 am

My thoughts and prayers are with you Lori, and your family, at this devastating time. No words can really express how sorry we all are

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Michele January 10, 2011 at 10:11 am

Here from Sarah's blog… Keeping you in prayer and holding Tony in my heart.

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Voluptacon January 10, 2011 at 9:09 pm

My heart is breaking for you Lori.
So sorry to hear of Tony passing.
All my best wishes to you a tthis time xoxoxoxo

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kasiabear January 10, 2011 at 9:43 am

I can't even begin to imagine what you are going through.. i'm sending every possible positive thought your way.. Hang in there.. Miracles do happen and I so wish one for you right now!!
Big huge cyber hugs!!
Xx

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anidledad January 10, 2011 at 9:23 am

Lori,
So sorry, I wish all the good luck I can for you.
Chris

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Natacha January 10, 2011 at 9:10 am

Praying…praying…hoping…wishing…praying… for you, your hubby and your family…you're in my thoughts.

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BS January 10, 2011 at 9:07 am

May your next post be the good news we are all hoping for.

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EmmaK January 10, 2011 at 8:50 am

Don't give up…I will keep thinking of you and praying for Tony. Be brave and keep believing things can get better xx

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Corinne – Daze of My Life January 10, 2011 at 8:11 am

Oh Lori, I'm so sorry. Your family remains in my family's thoughts and prayers. Please take care of yourself and know that there are many, many people here who care and are there for you.
xxxx

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Millie January 10, 2011 at 6:32 pm

Lori, I'm so sad to hear of Tony's passing, this is a very hard time for you please take some time to grieve and remember all the happy times. I'll be thinking of you and sending lots of strength and positive vibes your way. Millie xx

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Evonne January 10, 2011 at 7:31 am

Lori, I can't imagine what you are going through. I wish I had the words and power to make everything right.

I have witnessed great things happen when people come together. I hope with all I have that you and Tony will be another story with a happy ending. I will keep both of you in my thoughts and heart.

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Mrs BC January 10, 2011 at 4:04 pm

We haven't met but my heart is breaking for you & your family. Stay strong, miracles can happen. Really!
Sending you lots of good thoughts.
Mrs BC
xx

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Claire Marie January 10, 2011 at 4:32 am

My prayers, love and support are with you and your family. We are all here to listen, not judge, pray and support, so please keep us updated.

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Katie January 10, 2011 at 4:00 am

Lori, you have been on my mind and held close to my heart for the last few days. My whole family is praying for yours. We will continue to be here for you as long as you need us. (And longer)
Sending love xx

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OurGangof7 January 10, 2011 at 2:12 pm

Oh My God I feel for you!!! I hope and pray that Tony pulls trough this and you and your children keep him with you for years to come. This should never happen to people who deserve only good things.
Life is so cruel and unfair at times.
Please keep us informed when you can.
Hugs to you, please keep you chin up as best you can and know that there are many many people out here thinking of you and your family!!!
Love Colleen

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Leanne Scrapper January 10, 2011 at 3:00 am

What to say – thoughts are with you and your family, stay strong, you are obviously very loved. xx

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Kimberly January 10, 2011 at 2:28 am

I am praying along with my family and friends in Canada. Know it's ok to not feel strong…use us for strength….we will all be strong for you.
Love and hugs and prayers my dear friend.

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Harriet January 10, 2011 at 2:14 am

From the other end of the other side of the world we are thinking and praying and sending love. For you, for Tony, for your beautiful children. xxxx

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Kel January 10, 2011 at 1:59 am

I am sending every positive vibe I have to you and Tony x

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Lady-Like January 10, 2011 at 12:43 pm

With all the love in my heart – I pray for you and I pray for Tony and I pray for your two tiny children.

I have 2 daughters aged 4 and 7… and my husband had a horiffic accident when they were just 1 and 4. He broke his neck in many places and was told he would surely not make it.

I feel your pain, I feel it.

I only hope that Tony has the same outcome as my Hubby did and please know that if he does not – you are surrounded by such love.

I'm heartbroken for you.
xo

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Emily January 10, 2011 at 12:38 pm

I am so very sorry to hear about this horrible tragedy, Lori. I am sending positive thoughts your way and hope that everything works out as it should! xx

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Jean January 10, 2011 at 1:30 am

All my love and hope are with you. XXX

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Bridget January 10, 2011 at 1:05 am

You and your loved ones are in my thoughts. I'm not really sure which words are the right ones at this point but I hope you're feeling all the love from your blog as you will need as much as you can get! I'm so sorry for what you are going through. Keep strong xx

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Liz Boyne January 10, 2011 at 12:54 am

Oh Lori, hunny I'm thinking and praying so hard for you and Tony. I hate reading these horrible things happening, especially to people so close to us.

I'm here if you need to chat. I can't say I've ever been through what your going through now, nor do I ever want to – but just know that if you need to vent, I'm here.

Keeping you and your family in our thoughts and prayers.

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kylie January 10, 2011 at 12:38 am

My heart is breaking for what you and your family are currently going through. Tony is in our prayers and hearts. Praying for a miracle

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Bri January 10, 2011 at 12:19 am

Thinking and wishing and hoping for you and your family Lori xx

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Gab January 9, 2011 at 11:49 pm

You never know how STRONG you are…… Until being strong is the only choice you have!

My thoughts and prayers are with you Lori, I understand all to well how scary the uncertainty is right now and no matter how alone you feel, know in your heart that there are people who are beside you in spirit!

Gab xx

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JallieDaddy January 9, 2011 at 11:48 pm

I can't imagine how you must be feeling. Say strong, stay loving! My thoughts are with you & your family

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•´.¸¸.•¨¯`♥.Trish.♥´¯¨•.¸¸.´• January 9, 2011 at 11:44 pm

Lori my heart aches for you,Tony and your family.My thoughts and prayers are with you all.

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misssy m January 10, 2011 at 10:42 am

I'm waking up every day and the first thing I'm doing is checking for news on you and Tony. I'm hoping and praying that the next time I wake up it's to good news. I don't know you in person but I don't think it matters- we are part of a community that supports one another. With every fibre I send my hope into the ether and pray that our collective love and wishes help some kind of miracle along.

Gillian xxxx

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Lara January 9, 2011 at 11:38 pm

How horrible Lori, I'm so sorry for the horror you are experiencing. I wish I could do something for you. Cook for your family, babysit…something. Given that I can't (because I'm just a cyber friend) I will pray and send my love. I hope you and your family find a miracle.
Lots of love xoxo

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Fe January 9, 2011 at 11:32 pm

Oh Lori… I haven't posted here before, but have stalked and feel I know you through Brenda.

My thoughts and love are with you and your family. I'm not the praying kind, but I will be sending healing thoughts to Tony.

I wish I could do something more practical.

xox

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Rachel January 9, 2011 at 11:22 pm

Hi Lori,
Like many others have mentioned here I have been so touched by your story and my thoughts are with you and your family at this difficult time. I'm new to the blogging world and found your story through Aussie Mummy Bloggers which is proving to be a truly amazing network of people who love and care for you very very much. My heart goes out to you and your family. Stay strong
xxx

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Danni January 9, 2011 at 11:03 pm

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

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Kymmie January 9, 2011 at 10:57 pm

Lori, I've been thinking and praying for you and Tony all weekend. I haven't stopped thinking of you. I've even been checking my blogroll to see if you've updated. I'm praying for healing. I really am. I know I don't even know you personally, but there is so much love surrounding you right now. xxx

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Becky January 9, 2011 at 10:47 pm

Lori – you have been constantly on my mind and in my heart. I have been praying for you and your family, sending all the positive thoughts I can and hoping against hope for good news.
You are strong and we are all with you xo

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Ashleigh January 9, 2011 at 10:45 pm

So much love and prayer for you Lori, you are in our thoughts xxx

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meeks January 9, 2011 at 10:43 pm

Prayers and love coming at you from New Zealand XOXO

You are in our thoughts and in our hearts.

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Anonymous January 9, 2011 at 10:21 pm

So sorry to hear you and your family facing this tragedy. I can not begin to imagine…… :( Hoping for that miracle for you. xo Rufalina from BB

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Julie W January 9, 2011 at 10:19 pm

I don't know you I came across you via Twitter but I feel compelled to let you know my thoughts are with you and your family (( hugs )) xx

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Victoria {Victoria’s Secrets} January 9, 2011 at 10:18 pm

Sending all my positive energy your way.
Thinking of you. x

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Erin January 9, 2011 at 9:57 pm

I have been thinking about you all weekend, wondering what is happening, wondering how you and your children are and praying that things would be better. Like so many others, you are in my thoughts and we hope for the best for you all. xxx

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Anonymous January 9, 2011 at 9:54 pm

I'm sorry this is happening to you all :( I sincerely hope everything works out.

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Erin January 9, 2011 at 9:50 pm

Hi Lori,

I've read your blog from time to time. Followed links and casually checked in, and I too am here following links and posts from your regular readers and closer circle.

My heart was aching reading your last two posts. I am at a loss for words. I am praying for your husband and your family. It is heartbreaking to read about your situation. Sending my prayers and positive energy your way.

Erin.

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DaniV January 9, 2011 at 9:47 pm

Thank you for updating us, my husband and I have been praying for you and your husband since your previous post and will keep on praying.

No words, just hugs.

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Kylie January 9, 2011 at 9:47 pm

You don't know me, but I am thinking of you and your husband and hoping, constantly hoping.
xxx

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ushkace January 9, 2011 at 9:45 pm

Here from a friend's blog and sending as much love as possible to your and your family

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naoise.x. January 9, 2011 at 9:38 pm

I'm literally crying.
I know i like many others that read your blog are wishing there was something more we could do to make it better.
I'm so sorry that you are going through this!
praying for you & your family.
We <3 you lori!!!!!
.x.

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Sharnanigans January 9, 2011 at 9:28 pm

xxxx

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Victoria Masterman January 9, 2011 at 9:27 pm

Lori and Tony, we are thinking and praying for you and your babies that you have the strength to walk the path ahead of you and that the glimmer of hope that was there returns.
There are so many praying for you xxoo

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Jade January 9, 2011 at 9:27 pm

I've been at a 2-year-old's birthday party this afternoon. I knicked one of the helium balloons, a beautiful pink one with a big red loveheart on it, and I let it up into the air at sunset, wishing as strongly as I could for good news for you.
Fight hard, Tony.
Still thinking of you, always.

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m.e (Cathie) January 9, 2011 at 9:27 pm

thinking of you & your family ♥

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Jane January 9, 2011 at 9:19 pm

Lori, I can't stop thinking about you and Tony.

We are ALL here for you and crossing our fingers for some good news.

We love you xxx

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Moiaussii January 9, 2011 at 9:18 pm

Beautiful Lori,
I am thinking of and praying for you, Tony and your little ones. I have no words to express how much I am feeling for you xx

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Barbara January 9, 2011 at 8:39 pm

Lori, I'm so sorry to read this. I pray for you and Tony everytime I think of you guys – which is often.

I will light a candle for him when I go to mass this morning.

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Ami January 9, 2011 at 8:25 pm

Lori my heart breaks for you. I'm so sorry to hear what has happened. Sending all positive vibes possible. I truly hope you & your family get your miracle. xx

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deeanne January 9, 2011 at 8:10 pm

Lori, you and your family are in my thoughts xx

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equesteph January 9, 2011 at 7:57 pm

I believe in miracles. Sending you all I've got plus more. xox

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Anonymous January 9, 2011 at 7:55 pm

I am lighting a candle for Tony tonight. May it bring him some light to show some further response and hope for you all.
Your cyber community is with you Lori! xoxox

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Girl From the Ville January 9, 2011 at 7:54 pm

Lori, you are in my thoughts every minute of every day. I am praying for a miracle. I can't imagine what you are going through, please know how loved you are by both the blogging world and by all of us at BB.

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DanniiBeauty January 9, 2011 at 7:35 pm

I am praying for you and Tony. God can do miracles, and am praying that this will turn out to be a miracle for the best. Praying and hoping that Tony responds. Be strong. xx

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Danielle January 9, 2011 at 7:31 pm

Lori
I am so sorry my heart and soul is holding up in my thoughts for Tony . I pray each night and in morning as well i do believe in some or any kind of hope ! and you will as well. My heart is so breaking for you and you are such a strong person inside xxxxxx

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Anonymous January 9, 2011 at 7:27 pm

My thoughts & prayers are with you and your family during this horrible time. I am so sorry this is happening, pls stay strong and remember that miracles, can & do happen xxx

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BuBbles January 9, 2011 at 7:23 pm

Keep your faith Lori. Praying for Tony. xxx

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Corrie January 9, 2011 at 7:06 pm

still praying here lori, praying for you and for tony and that he recovers. Haven't been able to get you both out of my mind and my heart breaks for you to be going through this. Stay strong and stay positive.
corrie:)

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ruddygood January 9, 2011 at 6:51 pm

Sweetheart, my heartache at what you are living through can only be a tiniest fraction of what you are experiencing.

I hope so much that miracles happen, for Tony and for you and your babies.

Hold fast, lovely girl, and remember we are all here for you; to catch you, to hold you, to hear you. xxx

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x0xJ January 9, 2011 at 6:50 pm

You guys are basically all that's in my thoughts at the moment. Please please Tony pull through this, you have so many people who need you to just live. That's all they're asking, just live.
I am hoping today was just his body needing time out to recover and that it is the worst you will see. Hopefully tomorrow things improve. Hopefully tonight things improve.

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Debbie January 9, 2011 at 6:44 pm

Praying for a miracle for you. Don't give up hope,you & your family are in my thoughts.

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marketingtomilk January 9, 2011 at 6:36 pm

We are all here, waiting, praying, supporting, listening.

M2M

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Justine January 9, 2011 at 6:32 pm

oh God Lori, words fail me. We are praying. *hugs*

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PlanningQueen January 9, 2011 at 6:29 pm

It is impossible not to have you and your family in my thoughts and prayers. This is devastating Lori. I am truly sorry. I also believe in miracles and will keep praying for one.

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Kim January 9, 2011 at 6:24 pm

Oh no Lori, I am so sorry this is happening. We are all thinking, praying and hoping desperately for you and your family.

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Leanne January 9, 2011 at 6:11 pm

I don't know you at all and have never read your blog before now (shame cos it is amazing!) but I am here via a request for prayers on the Simple Savings forum and just wanted to say that I am thinking of you too……..I hope that all the positive thoughts and energy that is happening for Tony does help, I too believe in miracles ((hug))

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The Brimelows January 9, 2011 at 6:10 pm

Lori, I'm so sorry you are going through this terrible time. I just want to let you know that I have been praying for Tony each day. I'm also praying for strength for you and your family. I can't imagine what you are going through right now, but you are in my thoughts.

From ~Trish~

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Amy xxoo January 9, 2011 at 5:47 pm

Lori, there are very few of us who can even begin to contemplate what you are going through. That we dont have a shared experience does not stop us from sharing your pain though – each and every once of us commenting here, or reading about you on the various blog posts written for you, sends our love, support and positivity…for now, and for what may come. Stay strong sweet…

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Melissa January 9, 2011 at 5:45 pm

Sweetest Lori,

You have not left my thoughts since I first saw your post yesterday morning. I have waited, with the rest of our community with baited breath for news of you and of Tony.

I will continue to do so. Every ounce of strength and love I can send is yours. We are all praying – for a miracle for Tony – for strength and love for you.

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Chantelle {fat mum slim} January 9, 2011 at 5:42 pm

Lori,

I believe in miracles, and I hope one is headed your way. I have prayed all day every day for you and your family since I first heard, and I will continue to pray.

Sending you all my love. You are strong, amazing and a wonderful wife. Please get better Tony. Please. xx

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Alicia January 9, 2011 at 5:34 pm

Lori, I can't imagine what it is like for you and your family at the moment, it is a situation that no one should be in. Stay strong and know that there are lots of people praying for you and Tony. Thinking of you.

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Regan Leigh January 9, 2011 at 5:33 pm

So sorry… sending love.

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Heather January 9, 2011 at 5:33 pm

I don't know you, but I love your blog and being a part of your life (like a far off cousin – twice removed). I'm not a prayer, but for this…for you – I am praying and hoping and wishing that a small spot of light will be your focus as you find your way through this darkness. Wish we could be there to help in any way you need us.

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In Real Life January 9, 2011 at 5:32 pm

*HUGS* Thinking of you. Sending prayers, positive thoughts, and hope.

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Charmaine January 9, 2011 at 5:26 pm

Hang in there and be strong for your beautiful bubs. Thinking of you at this horrible time.

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Kellyansapansa January 9, 2011 at 5:25 pm

I don't know what to say Lori, except to tell you that I am thinking of you and sending all of the positive vibes I possibly can. Massive hugs.

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Jenn @ South of Sheridan January 9, 2011 at 5:24 pm

My heart is aching for you. Sending all the love, prayers and hopes your way. I cannot imagine how difficult this is.

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alliecat January 9, 2011 at 5:10 pm

Hang in there, we are still praying. I am so glad you got the chance to talk to him, to tell him you love him and forgive him, that is so important for you both, whatever happens. That is a gift. xox

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Sarah January 9, 2011 at 5:05 pm

Dearest Lori, you're surrounded by love, prayers and good wishes. You've been in my thoughts and prayers since you first posted. I'm praying for a miracle and strength for you to get through this. Lots of love. S x

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Anonymous January 9, 2011 at 5:05 pm

Lori words cannot express how truly sorry I am to read of this latest update. I will continue to hope and pray for a miracle so your Tony can be returned to you.
CheezelMonster from BB

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Madame Marielle January 9, 2011 at 4:55 pm

Have been reading your blog for a little while Lori, but never commented. I'm so sorry this nightmare is happening to you, wishing you love and strength from all directions.

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Joni Llanora January 9, 2011 at 4:51 pm

Keep strong Lori! We are all praying for a miracle. xoxo.

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Catch the Kids January 9, 2011 at 4:51 pm

Lori, we are all praying for Tony at our house. My heart is breaking for you and your precious children. Love and hugs xxx

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Farmers Wifey January 9, 2011 at 4:49 pm

My lovely friend, still thinking of you and praying every moment…..

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Fleur McDonald January 9, 2011 at 4:39 pm

Lori, I can't begin to understand what you're feeling, thinking or seeing. I just pray that you are given the strength to cope with each second as it happens.

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Mak January 9, 2011 at 4:38 pm

Wishing for a miracle for you all. xx

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MrsKT January 9, 2011 at 4:32 pm

Praying for a miracle for Tony. You and your family are in my thoughts.

xxx

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Lisa January 9, 2011 at 4:32 pm

Lori, in your dark moments, close your eyes and feel our energy, and hopefully some will flow through to you to help move to the next less dark moment. We are a collective mass of love and hope and unrelenting optimism. And what an amazingly thoughtful person you are to keep us updated when you have so much else to focus on. Much love Lori xx

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Anonymous January 9, 2011 at 4:29 pm

I am thinking of you all constantly and praying so hard for a miracle. xx

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Norlin January 9, 2011 at 4:29 pm

Lori, my prayers are with you and your family and especially Tony. I can't imagine what you're going through. xx

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Lexie Lime January 9, 2011 at 4:25 pm

You and Tony have been in my thoughts constantly Lori.
I hope the love and light we are sending finds you and will help carry you through your darkest moments and whatever lays ahead.

xoxox

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Maxabella January 9, 2011 at 4:17 pm

Giving it everything we've got Lori. We all feel so helpless for you. Honey, we are here. x

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So Now What? January 9, 2011 at 4:17 pm

I keep thinking about you. And about Tony. And wishing and hoping for you both that I come back on and it's all good news. I'm going to keep wishing and hoping for exactly that. Bern x

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mrsmac January 9, 2011 at 4:14 pm

Still praying for you and thinking of you Lori, as is most of BB. You don't need to stay strong because we will be strong for you. xx

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Naomi January 9, 2011 at 4:13 pm

Holding you all in my heart Lori, you, Tony and your children.

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Nerdycomputergirl January 9, 2011 at 4:12 pm

Lori you have been in my thoughts since I read your first devastating post. Sending positive thoughts and support to you and your family.

Karen

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Kathryn January 9, 2011 at 4:06 pm

I hope you get a miracle, Lori. It is obvious how much you are loved by the blogging community.

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Janine January 9, 2011 at 4:04 pm

Lori, it's Janine from bellybelly, we were baby buddies with your little man. I just wanted to let you know that I am thinking of you and sending my love and support to you, I can not begin to imagine what you are going through. I'm praying for a miracle xxx

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Lynette January 9, 2011 at 3:59 pm

Oh Lori, my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family, holding on strong hope for a miracle. Stay strong xoxoxox

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Melissa *Suger Coat It* January 9, 2011 at 3:44 pm

Our prayers will, of course, continue. My heart breaks for you, you lovely thing. Just keeping going. One hour, one day at a time.

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Kim at allconsuming January 9, 2011 at 3:39 pm

In the darkest of days, the most unbearable of moments or when you can't even imagine how you will get to the next minute, remember you are not alone. That you are loved. That we won't let you fall.

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Taryn January 9, 2011 at 3:38 pm

Still praying for you and your family Lori, our thoughts and love are with you in these dark hours. xxx

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Yvette Vignando January 9, 2011 at 3:36 pm

Biggest hugs and warm thoughts and wishing you any strength you can muster xxoo

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[Good Mum Hunting] January 9, 2011 at 3:35 pm

Thinking of you.

Sending you prayers and thoughts of miracles.

x

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Kylie January 9, 2011 at 3:32 pm

I think of you constantly throughout the day Lori. I've never met you face to face, but your blog has made me laugh and smile at times when I was low. Now at this darkest time in your life, I want you to know my thoughts, prayers and love and all directed at you, Tony and the kids. Miracles happen. I believe you will get yours.

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Annie January 9, 2011 at 3:31 pm

I am thinking of you xo

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Anonymous January 9, 2011 at 3:31 pm

Lori,
I too am a stranger, swept in by twitter retweets.
I'm currently (these last few months) trying to describe publicly what it's like being on the inside of a mind that reaches this terrible point.
After 20 years battling, I found a psycho-developmental reason for my tangled thoughts and consequently a layman's exit door. I really hope that my exit door might be a safe exit for someone else from this terrible thing.
It's possible that my thoughts might provide some small amount of help to you as you reach for understanding, so I am offering it only for that reason … my experience may only correlate to a fraction of the puzzle you now face.
http://triminded.com/2011/01/05/too-much-information/ (Earlier posts would help understand the terms I'm using.)
May you be blessed in some way at this time, to relieve your pain in some small amount.
R.

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Missy Boo January 9, 2011 at 3:31 pm

Much love and many positive healing vibes and thoughts to you and your family xxx

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Fiona January 9, 2011 at 3:30 pm

Hugs hun thinking of you and your family and hoping for a miracle.

Sending love, hope and prayers your way xoxo

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Sherie Brown January 9, 2011 at 3:26 pm

Lori, I just don't know what to say that will make all this better for you.

Much love to you, your babies and your families xoxoxo

(Trillian)

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Brenda January 9, 2011 at 3:25 pm

Oh honey. I am holding you in my heart. I am praying and hoping for a miracle for your Tony.

I love you, punkin.xxxxxx

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ejay January 9, 2011 at 3:24 pm

Thoughts and prayers are with you and your family….

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Being Me January 9, 2011 at 3:23 pm

Crying my eyes out. You are all loved and cherished. I'm so sorry. And I DO believe in miracles, they happen even out of the blackest of dark hours xoxox

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Ebonie’s Mummy January 9, 2011 at 3:20 pm

You're never far from my thoughts, i'm praying hard for you, tony and the children xx

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Stylish Mummy January 9, 2011 at 3:18 pm

Lori, it is so unfair for this to be happening to you. You are the funniest, loveliest person I know and I am so heartbroken for you. I hope with everything in me that Tony pulls through for you and the babies. I wish I was closer to give you a huge hug. You are all in my thoughts and prayers xx

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Jo January 9, 2011 at 3:15 pm

Still sending you all prayers, love and hope xxx
Take care xx

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Hear Mum Roar January 9, 2011 at 3:15 pm

I'm sorry this is such a shitty day for you:( ((HUG)) We're all still pulling for you guys, just hang in there. Whatever the outcome, you will surprise yourself, I promise. Our coping skills are always better than we believe they are at the time.

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Anonymous January 9, 2011 at 3:14 pm

Wishing you all the strength you need to get through this awful time. Praying for the miracle you deserve

xxxx

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Caz (The Truth About Mummy) January 9, 2011 at 3:11 pm

Send all available prayer to you and your family. Hang in there Lori. xx

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Nicole | Designer Mamas January 9, 2011 at 3:06 pm

Thinking of you and your family. Take care of yourself. x

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Jeanette January 10, 2011 at 2:04 am

Lori, my prayers are w/ u and ur babies! Dear Lord, touch Lori in this dark hour & give her peace. Knowledge that u r just a thought away! Heal Tony's mind & body. Be closer than close to this family in crisis, as u r w/ all people who cry out to You! Amen. Thinking of you throughout the days, knowing that mums are strong, resilient & always there for those they love!
Bless!

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Pink Ronnie January 9, 2011 at 3:03 pm

Praying and thinking of you and your children and Tony.

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Kathy January 9, 2011 at 3:02 pm

Lori, the thoughts and prayers of both me and my family are with you, today and tomorrow and in the weeks to come.

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Wanderlust January 9, 2011 at 2:52 pm

Oh Lori, my heart is breaking along with yours. I am here, praying and holding you in my heart. So much love to you and your beautiful Tony. xoxo

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Ms Styling You January 9, 2011 at 2:47 pm

Oh, Lori, know that more people than you can ever imagine are sending virtual hugs and positive thoughts your way. xxx

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Felicity January 9, 2011 at 2:46 pm

Thank you for taking the time to send this out amidst all that you are going through. You and Tony have been very present in my thoughts and with all of the other bloggers, we are hoping for the very best outcome.

I received a beautiful message today from someone commenting on my call for prayers for Tony

"Miracles happen where there is love" Maya Angelou

Sending love and prayers,

Felicity x

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Sim January 9, 2011 at 2:45 pm

Lori, I don't know you or your family but I wanted to say that your story is heartbreaking and I feel for your suffering. You show many people like myself much support through the blogging world and you should know many of these people are thinking of you now and that collective energy I am sure is felt on your difficult journey. Love and Light.

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Fiona January 9, 2011 at 2:45 pm

I am glad you got to talk to him, if only to say it's okay and you love him.

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Cat January 9, 2011 at 2:45 pm

Lori, you don't know me at all but I am an heartbroken for you. I hope you are all able to dig to the deepest parts of yourselves to survive this. I am praying with very ounce of my being. Much love to you and your family at this time. Xxxxxx

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Lucy January 9, 2011 at 2:43 pm

Lori, more than anything I will you the strength to cope with all this. My heart is breaking for you my sweet. xx

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Sarah January 9, 2011 at 2:41 pm

My beautiful girl, I can not even begin to imagine what you are going through. I am holding your hand in spirit, holding you up & giving you strength.

Praying every second for a miracle.

Love you xx

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frogpondsrock January 9, 2011 at 2:40 pm

Lori if prayers are what you want then prayers are what I can give xox

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Katy January 9, 2011 at 2:40 pm

We are all here for you – sending you all the positive vibes!!! Xxx

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Life In A Pink Fibro January 9, 2011 at 2:40 pm

Fingers crossed so hard for you Lori that I can hardly type.

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Nicole January 9, 2011 at 2:39 pm

You are in my prayers.

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Jennifer Kay January 9, 2011 at 2:39 pm

I feel like MY life has been on hold waiting to hear something from you. I was even signed up for a twitter account today because somebody said you posted there… I do not have words for what you are going through but hang in there. I have two small kids just like yours and I know I would be a wreck without some support.

I too am here for whatever I could possibly offer!

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Annieb25 January 9, 2011 at 2:39 pm

Love and prayers are being sent your way. I wish there was a way to take away this unbearable pain. Know that there are many people praying and thinking of you all. xxxx

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Christie January 9, 2011 at 2:38 pm

I wont stop thinking of you, Lori and sending good thoughts Tony's way. Keeping the faith, love Christie xx

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Eva Gallant January 10, 2011 at 1:36 am

My thoughts and prayers are with you and Tony.

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Butterfly January 9, 2011 at 2:36 pm

Praying for you and your family. stay strong sweet heart.
Love, lots of love to you and Tony.

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Mel Kettle January 9, 2011 at 2:35 pm

I don't know you Lori, but I came across your blog and your sadness and your nightmare from twitter friends who read your blog. My heart goes out to you all. Sending big hugs.

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nadinewrites108 January 9, 2011 at 2:34 pm

With you. Holding you. With all my strength. Always. x

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Suz January 9, 2011 at 2:34 pm

We are all here. Sending love & hope xx

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Aussiemumbecc January 9, 2011 at 2:32 pm

praying for Tony constantly. Keep positive. hope things turn for the better soon xxxx becc xxxx

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Veronica January 9, 2011 at 2:31 pm

Oh Lori. Peace and strength to you. xxx

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Alison Triffett – Style Counsel January 9, 2011 at 2:31 pm

Oh God Lori. I don't know what to say. I often question the meaning of life but to know there is such tragedy around us (and right there for you personally, right here, right now) breaks my heart. I don't know what good ever can come out of situations like yours. There can't be a "reason" for this, surely? I just hope and pray that all our prayers are reaching you and that God will listen to us all. You are amazing. You are stronger than you think. Prayers, hugs and everything in between coming your way always…

xx

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Veggie Mama January 9, 2011 at 2:30 pm

We're all here, in support of you and your family. If only we could do more x

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Kakka January 9, 2011 at 2:30 pm

I am so sorry that things seem to be getting worse instead of better. Sending lots of love and positive thoughts your way. Be strong my love, know that there are friends everywhere thinking, hoping and praying for you, Tony and your gorgeous children. Hugs from Perth xxx

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Christie-Childhood 101 January 9, 2011 at 2:29 pm

You are never far from my thoughts, Lori. My heart is breaking for you xx

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bgirl January 9, 2011 at 2:29 pm

Oh Lori! Hang in there and stay strong. All of our thoughts and prayers are with you, Tony and the rest of your family. B xox

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Tina ~ tina gray dot me January 9, 2011 at 2:29 pm

My heart is aching for you. Sending you all the love, positive vibes and strength in the world. xxx

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Langdowns January 9, 2011 at 2:28 pm

Oh my God Lori. We are right here. RIGHT here. Just a keyboard away. I really feel that all this energy has to account for something. It's got to work. I've seen it work face-to-face and I am sure this presence on line will work as well. Keep hoping and praying and believing, and so will we. Best wishes and loads of hugs. Leanne.

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Cate January 9, 2011 at 2:27 pm

I have no words…but I have faith and have prayers…
xxxCate

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Glowless @ Where’s My Glow January 9, 2011 at 2:26 pm

Still praying as hard as possible, my heart is aching for you. Love G x

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Madmother January 9, 2011 at 11:49 pm

We are here, and surely all this positive energy cannot NOT count in the universe. Even Boy 1 has been focusing, sending positive energy to your auras (don't ask me, the 12 year old is the expert in this house).

For me, I always believe where there is life, there is hope. xx

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Suzie G January 9, 2011 at 9:17 pm

Geez life sucks sometimes, I truly hope it gets better for you soon. Thinking of you.

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This Mid 30s Life January 9, 2011 at 9:17 pm

Lori I'm thinking of you, sending you love and positive thoughts.
xx

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Tat January 9, 2011 at 9:07 pm

Oh, Lori, it breaks my heart to read this. My thoughts and prayers will be with you. With so much praying going around, surely a miracle will have to happen.

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thepixiechick January 9, 2011 at 8:57 pm

You have been on my mind every second since Thursday night…. even in my dreams. I am with Ezy, I can't believe you are going through this. I wish I could take this week away so that you never had to go through this. If there is anything I can do, I'm here.

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ezymay January 9, 2011 at 8:40 pm

Oh my darling, I can't belive this is happening to one of the nicest, most awesomest people I know. I pray for you constantly and will be there with anything you need. I love you lots.

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Susan @ Reading Upside Down January 9, 2011 at 5:54 pm

Thinking and praying for Tony and you and your family. Hoping that you having comforting arms holding you IRL as you do 'virtual' arms here on your blog.

Wishing you strength and peace.

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Peggy January 9, 2011 at 5:44 pm

Oh my god, Lori. I only just saw what's going on. I am so sorry to hear you are all going through this. Sending you so much love and strength and healing. You and Tony will be in my prayers. xx

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myshoeboxlife.com January 9, 2011 at 5:25 pm

I am praying for you constantly. Willing all the strength and love I have to you. Shelley. xx

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Mummy@Bod for tea January 9, 2011 at 5:11 pm

Lori, I'm so, so sorry to read this update. I still have hope for you and your family – sending you all the most positive thoughts and best wishes I can muster.

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Claire Chadwick @ Scissors Paper Rock January 9, 2011 at 2:28 pm

Lori, my heart is broken just reading this! The whole Mummy/bloggers/online community are thinking of you, feeling for you, crying for you, praying for you & here to support you! I am praying for a miracle! Hang in there!!!
xo

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