Chronic Procrastination

by Lori Dwyer on February 15, 2012 · 6 comments

I am a terrible procrastinator.

It’s a bad habit, and Tony used to tease me endlessly for it. I could procrastinate competitively, representing the country. I can find a million other things to do with my time, rather than what’s on my To Do list– blogs to read, gardens to weed, toenails to cut. You get the drift.

It’s not an appealing quality, and lets face it– no one ever puts off things they want to do. It’s only the stuff we don’t want to do, for whatever reason, that gets left till tomorrow. Or the next day. Possibly even the day after that.

For me, the reason I put things off until tiny things become huge– even a phone call can feel like a massive, expectant event that clouds my horizon– is because I’m afraid of something. And it’s usually myself.

A few months back– if I’m honest, I think it was October– a blog reader of mine, Angela, asked me to test this online product, Step To Heal, for them. It’s not something they’re affiliated with, or a sponsored post or anything like that. It’s just that Angela writes a blog where she trials different bits and pieces and reviews them. The focus of this particular program is moving on from a relationship and a broken heart, and learning to let go.

It stemmed like a really, really good idea at the time.

Four– maybe five– months later, it still sits I my inbox, waiting for me to get a wriggle on.


As I said, I usually avoid things because I’m scared. Of me. And this is no different. While it might be what I need, it scares he bejesus out of me– and not only because it talks a lot in terms of your “ex partner”– I was fairly warned about that part.

The frightening thing is… well. I’m not entirely sure. But I’m inclined to think its having to confront so much stuff, so many emotions, when I seem to confront it all the time anyway. In the bits I can dream through, no pain, I will. I know– I can feel– so much horrible, ugly stuff beneath my surface that still needs examining. But the thought of doing it right now is terrifying.

That’s the thing about procrastination, though… as I said, it builds up. Little things become molehills that become mountains, and they stick in the back of your mind, low and deep, and you have to swallow past them.

My normal reaction is Nike–style, learned at the stoic knee of my mum– just do it, princess. The event itself is never as fraught as the anticipation that proceeds it.

But… not this time. This one still sits, kind of jeering at me (coward) from the bottom of my inbox, which acts a virtual blogging To Do list.

What can I say…? Not much.

I’m getting to it. I promise.

post signature

Leave a Comment

CommentLuv badge

{ 6 comments… read them below or add one }

Angela (Solo Mum) March 26, 2012 at 10:10 am

From one procrastinator to another, some advice:

Take that email folder and delete the contents and strike the program from your to-do list!

Sometimes the littlest things being shed, lighten your load just enough to allow the future in <3



Brad February 25, 2012 at 8:05 am

I don't procrastinate. I'll tell you why one day.


Dee February 21, 2012 at 10:18 am

Just saw you on 'Today'. Great Interview. So glad I recorded it


Donna February 20, 2012 at 11:23 am

I'm a fellow procrastinator from waaaay back! I loathe this thing about me the most but cant seem to fix it.

With the big ticket items it is fear of failure that frightens me most – if you cant start you cant fail! Bust sadly you cant also success. So am taking your advise "Nike style" and going to suck it up and get on with my list today!


Melissa February 15, 2012 at 10:27 pm

I am a procrastinator too – but at least you are an insightful one. I have NO idea why I put things off. I will DILIGENTLY avoid making a simple phone call for absolutely no reason… and I am clueless as to why I do it.


Shellye February 15, 2012 at 4:43 pm

You are a rarity, Lori. Most procrastinators are of the male persuasion. I WISH I could procrastinate. Nothing would make me happier, but I can't. It's not in my nature.

You're absolutely right. The root of procrastination is fear. I couldn't have said it better myself.


Previous post:

Next post: